For those who are interested, Kristian’s celebration can be viewed at:
I miss him every day.
~ by Kristian Anderson on January 12, 2012.
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Watching, Listening, Crying, Thinking of you…
Gina Baynham said this on January 12, 2012 at 8:35 pm | Reply
Dear Rachel. My heart breaks for you as it does for me. I know just what you are going through as my husband was diagnosed 6 weeks before Kristian with the same cancer and passed away six weeks and 1 day before Kristian. Its now been 7 weeks and I miss him so much. I still haven’t come to terms with the fact he is no longer here to talk to, hold, kiss or sleep next to. Like your Kristian my husband was a great man loved by many. I cry for you and at this stage cannot offer you any other words of advise except you are not alone.
Sending love to you all.
Gail (Southwest WA)
Gail said this on January 12, 2012 at 9:10 pm | Reply
Beautiful~ Kristian’s smiling face is so comforting, his eyes so sincere. I am praying for you and the boys and I am hoping you found some comfort in that special service. Love from Ohio~Diana
diana aka meme said this on January 13, 2012 at 12:07 am | Reply
You always have our thoughts and prayers to you and your boys, Rachel. I watched and laughed and cried through his whole service. I know he’s not there with you in body anymore but I am SURE his spirit lives within you all.
Angela said this on January 13, 2012 at 12:52 am | Reply
Rachel, Cody and Jacob,
I’ve read Kristian’s blog every since the Oprah taping…you have inspired the world more than you know. I am sor incrediably sorry for your loss and hope that someday God’s plan is revealed to you all.
Holly said this on January 13, 2012 at 1:57 am | Reply
Dear Rachel, Cody and Jakob – What a beautiful celebration of your beloved Kristian’s life. Thank you for staying true to His call on all your lives. There is no doubt that Kristian’s life and faith have been used to bring others closer to the heart of Jesus. May this bring you some measure of comfort and peace.
In His Love – Jenny
Jenny Owen said this on January 13, 2012 at 5:55 am | Reply
An unbelievable celebration of an inspirational life.
Thank you for sharing.
Jo said this on January 13, 2012 at 7:50 am | Reply
Dear Rachel , Cody and Jakob,
Kristian was and will continue to be an inspiration to so many people. Thank you for sharing his beautiful celebration of life. My thoughts and prayers are with you and the boys.
Renae said this on January 13, 2012 at 12:07 pm | Reply
What an uplifting evangelical service! My prayers are with you and the boys, Rachel. Thank you for posting it where it can reach so many for Christ.
Jennifer said this on January 13, 2012 at 12:57 pm | Reply
What a beautiful service, thank you for sharing it!
I am praying for you and your beuatiful boys <3
AG82 said this on January 13, 2012 at 1:45 pm | Reply
msmidge said this on January 13, 2012 at 2:10 pm | Reply
A beautiful celebration for a wonderful man. Safe in the arms of Jesus…
Trish said this on January 13, 2012 at 7:22 pm | Reply
Dear Rachel, Cody & Jakob,
May gods grace and peace rain down upon you and your beautiful sons in your time of grief. What an inspirational service, what courage you showed in your moving tribute to Kristian! Thank you for sharing Kristian’s journey with us all. I have been following his blog since the begining of 2010, even though i did not know him I feel as though i got to know him through his eloquent and honest writing,and what shined through the most was how much he loved you and the boys, and what is really important in life.
Rachel you and your boys are in my thoughts and prayers.
I also wanted you to know that my 13 year old daughter,Rochelle, had a dream of Kristian on the night that he passed, we did not know of his passing till the 3rd. Rochelle said to me on the morning of the 3rd “mum i dreamed of Kristian last night”, in the dream he was in a beautiful garden near a river,there were many flowers of every colour and trees that looked like willows,everything looked so perfect and the light in this garden was very bright that you couldn’t look at it for very long.
Kristian was walking through this garden with a look of wonder on his face,Rochelle said he looked healthy and had a big smile on his face,he looked radiant and whole!
I hope you find some small comfort in the dream of a child.
Big Hugs to you Rachel
toula said this on January 13, 2012 at 10:07 pm | Reply
What a beautiful celebration of his life!
What an inspirational man.
Alex Ellaway said this on January 13, 2012 at 11:40 pm | Reply
I watched the service live on my iPhone from Phoenix, AZ. Kristian’s grandmother and my grandmother are sisters – but I haven’t seen Sandy & Andy for years. I remember baby sitting Jeremy when he was 2. To see him now as a grown man, giving the best eulogy I have ever heard, was both hard and good. The service was full of many emotions – lovely to see the families faces, but through tears of both joy and sadness. To hear how everyone described Kristian helped me to appreciate the personalities of my husband and son – they can be viewed as difficult at times, or I can choose to appreciate that it is those same traits that make them the great men I love. Blessings on you and your boys Rachel. We keep pray for you – always. xx
Beth (Coleman) Nixon said this on January 14, 2012 at 1:13 am | Reply
I watched the service live on my iPhone from Phoenix, AZ, USA. Kristian’s maternal-grandmother and my maternal-grandmother are sisters but I haven’t seen Sandy & Andy for years – really since they moved to Perth. (I grew up in Sydney). I remember babysitting Jeremy when he was 2. The service was full of many emotions – lovely to see family faces – but through tears and sadness. To see Jeremy as a grown man was incredible. He gave the best eulogy I have ever heard. Hearing the way Kristian was described has helped me to appreciate my husband and son – who have traits that can be viewed as either difficult or recognized to be the very traits I can depend on them for and for which I love them so much. Thank you for having it broadcast – it meant a lot to me as it did to so many around the world. We keep praying for you Rachel, and your beautiful boys.
Beth (Coleman) Nixon said this on January 14, 2012 at 1:18 am | Reply
Thank you for sharing Rachel and Kristian. It’s not goodbye. It’s see you later.
Susan said this on January 14, 2012 at 10:33 am | Reply
Dear Rachel. I organised my day so I could watch Kristian’s funeral live. But my daughter needed me so I didn’t see past your truly awesome eulogy. But I have now sat and watched it through. May God Bless you, your boys and all who loved Kristian. May you be given strength, peace and all the Blessings you will need as you move forward on your journey of life without Kristian beside you.
I will keep praying for you all.
Michelle from Brisbane said this on January 15, 2012 at 12:06 am | Reply
Thank you so much for posting Kristian’s celebration on here. I sat here watching it and wept for a man and a family I had never met and yet may have never come across, if it was not for the heartbreaking circumstances kristian and yourself found yourselves in. It really hit home when you said that it was not a coincidence to have stumbled upon Kristian’s blog. Hearing what you said brought full circle the truth that God was simply allowing myself, through Kristian’s words, the ability to think about, work on and focus upon what it means to have a daily relationship with our God. Something at times I had neglected and had not been in the forefront of my thoughts and actions.
I would like to thank Kristian for in the most challenging and darkest times always being obedient to God and allowing so many to learn from him. I am so very grateful to Kristian and wish I could tell him so.
Kristian was and is an amazing megaphone for Gods love, comfort and grace. May his message spread to the ends of the earth.
Sending lots of love to you, Cody and Jakob.
Sherry Fink, Palmerston North, NZ said this on January 15, 2012 at 12:08 am | Reply
An incredibly moving and beautiful service. All four giving eulogies spoke with eloquence, passion and love. Although most of us will only see it through the media rather than having been there, the love emanating from your church shines through. God bless, and thank you for sharing it with us.
Alex said this on January 15, 2012 at 8:07 am | Reply
inspiring, heart breaking, wonderful. thank you for sharing a private event with the world. I stayed up tp 2am watching it. I feel honoured to be able to read Kirsten’s journey, and watch the celebration of his life, cry, draw strength, and find a spirtualness that I thought I had lost a long time ago. I was touched not by all the comments that I have read on this website, but how they were also included at the end of the video.
I will pray for you. Sending of lots of love from my family to yours.
Fiona said this on January 15, 2012 at 11:48 am | Reply
I have followed Kristian’s journey and the “cancer battle” from the beginning after coming across the now very famous birthday video.
I will be in church tomorrow thanks to Kristian and to Rachel’s moving words. I pray for peace and wonderful memories for Rachel and the boys.
I lost my father when I was six. I have few memories and know very little about who he was because it became a forbidden subject in our home. It gladens my heart to know that Kristian’s legacy will be virtually tangible for the boys.
Rachael, Ottawa Canada
Rachael said this on January 15, 2012 at 11:51 am | Reply
3:40am in the U.S. Couldn’t sleep so I thought I’d watch & pray with you a bit; and came away from this comforted and succored myself. I came to the blog after Kristian had already passed, and read it in chunks as a series of devotionals. The scriptures and his humor and sense and honesty are so uplifting. How many people can you say that about — that their diary is your devotional? What a man. And Rachel, your generosity in thinking of others at this time is so amazing. You’re a mighty hero, too.
Nicole, Atlanta USA
Nicole said this on January 15, 2012 at 7:48 pm | Reply
Thank you for sharing such a beautiful celebration of Kristian’s life with the world. I don’t know how you got through it with such grace. I will continue to pray for you and the boys. May you find peace and happiness in the days to come.
Lisa – U.S.
Lisa said this on January 16, 2012 at 10:23 am | Reply
“Hallelujah for these eyes to see your painted life
Hallelujah for the touch now of skin to skin with mine
Hallelujah for this mind that keeps our souls combined
Hallelujah for this life that let me be your child
Hallelujah, to be a part of your life
To see inside of all your smiles
You’re a traffic light of fire
You’re a man who I believe will never die”
From Gin Wigmore’s song ‘Hallelujah’
Michelle said this on January 17, 2012 at 9:21 am | Reply
Thank you for sharing, your lifes a testimony to us all!!! Will keep you in you and your family in our prayers!!! God bless!!!!
Susan Dique said this on January 17, 2012 at 3:44 pm | Reply
things must be really tough on you. i’ve been following this blog ever since i watched your birthday video done by Kristian.
will continue to uplift you and your 2 wonderful boys in prayer.
The LORD bless thee, and keep thee:
The LORD make his face shine upon thee, and be gracious unto thee:
The LORD lift up his countenance upon thee, and give thee peace.
Love, Kit May.
Kit May said this on January 17, 2012 at 7:14 pm | Reply
Thank you Rachel for sharing. My heart breaks for you and your handsome boys. Finding this blog by “accident” has opened my eyes to be the wife, mother, daughter of God that I need to be. Blessings to you and your loved ones.
AngieS. said this on January 19, 2012 at 5:38 am | Reply
I am forever changed. I pray I find the peace Kristian was able to find.
Jennifer said this on January 19, 2012 at 1:48 pm | Reply
I pray we ALL find that sense of certainty and peace.
Rachel, your graciousness and sweet soul brought me to my knees. My heart bleeds for yours. I am so touched by your true love for Kristian and his for you. He was God sent to you and I feel your story was God sent to me. Your story and faith has changed my life.
All my love,
Jennifer said this on January 19, 2012 at 2:02 pm | Reply
I am very sorry for your loss however I would like you to know that my wife and I have been married for six years and we have been separated for roughly 2 years. I had seen your husbands video and sent it to her. I let her know I still love her and wish that things hadn’t gone the way they did. I have recently moved back in and started wearing my ring again. Your husbands video made me think of what’s important and why I married her to begin with. I am so sorry for your loss and so thankful for the light that your family has shed on my life. I will pray for your family every night. Your husband was an angel who helped me. Thank you from Massachusetts usa
Seth said this on January 19, 2012 at 2:47 pm | Reply
Rachel, I stumbled across your husbands birthday video some time back, and watched as a stream of tears ran down my cheeks. Meeting Kristian himself was not necessary to know that he was a genuine man, full of all sorts of kindnesses. I recently had a moment of thought about the video, and wanted to know how his battle was coming along, only to discover that he had passed 2 weeks before my birthday.
I can only hope that one day, I’ll be as good a husband and father as Kristian was. His birthday video triggered both emotional and inspirational meanings, and the funeral webcast was eye opening.
My heart goes out to the family and friends of Kristian. He was a man of good, and made a difference to the world.
Rachel, I may be a complete stranger to you – but I believe in the kindness of strangers. My heart goes out to you and your children in such a tough time, and I wish for nothing but the strength for you to regain the smile you once had, and to take care of your little boys.
Michael Wells said this on January 19, 2012 at 9:14 pm | Reply
What a beautiful difference….one single life made. Truly your husband has made such an AMAZING difference in so many lives including mine.
Isn’t that what GOD wants of us? I too feel your pain, I lost my daughter Nicole 5 years ago all I know is that she is forever with HIM and embraced by his eternal light. I hope this brings you comfort.
With much love <3
lynn DeMusis-Grady said this on January 19, 2012 at 10:26 pm | Reply
“Precious in the eyes of the Lord is the death of His saints”..Psalm 116:15
I never met Kristian but nevertheless, his life and death touched me deeply. I look forward to meeting him in person some day when we are all reunited as brothers and sisters in Christ in our heavenly home.
Brenda K said this on January 20, 2012 at 4:48 am | Reply
I came across Kristian’s blog in October of 2009–his second posting, not by chance, but by GOD. I had no idea how purposeful and instrumental his postings would be for me. In 2011, my family and I endured personal hardships. I became sorrowful, angry, and often questioned the very God that I had long praised, served and honored. I had moments of extreme selfishness and hatred. And then, one evening while reading a recent posting from Kristian(one where he talked so openly about his physical and emotional pain)–it really struck me that he still found hope, strength and glory to be given and bestowed upon God. God touched my heart and helped me to realize that despite my struggles and feelings of helplessness–He had not forsaken me–just as He had not Kristian. We serve such a powerful, merciful and mighty God. Kristian–you were refreshing. A true man of God and a faithful servant. Thank you for showcasing your journey and your faith in such a powerful and humbling way. Looking forward to meeting you when I come “home”. :) Rachel–you are an incredible woman, daughter of Christ, wife and mother. Your persistent love, encouragement and strength is truly inspirational and I applaud you for standing by your faith in God the Father and serving your husband and family. My prayers and thoughts are with you.
All to Jesus I surrender;
All to Him I freely give;
I will ever love and trust Him,
In His presence daily live.
I surrender all,
I surrender all;
All to Thee, my blessed Savior,
I surrender all.
All to Jesus I surrender;
Humbly at His feet I bow,
Worldly pleasures all forsaken;
Take me, Jesus, take me now.
All to Jesus I surrender;
Make me, Savior, wholly Thine;
Let me feel the Holy Spirit,
Truly know that Thou art mine.
All to Jesus I surrender;
Lord, I give myself to Thee;
Fill me with Thy love and power;
Let Thy blessing fall on me.
All to Jesus I surrender;
Now I feel the sacred flame.
Oh, the joy of full salvation!
Glory, glory, to His Name!
Kari said this on January 20, 2012 at 8:20 am | Reply
Dear Rachel, My heart goes out to you. I just discovered the birthday video and the blog this evening. After watching the video, I had to read the entire blog. What an amazing husband, man, father. Inspiring, insightful, caring and compassionate, passionate and driven to help others. After reading the blog, I watched the Celebration Service and cried all the way through. I am so sorry for your loss and for the boys’ loss. My prayers are with you and your family. You are an amazing, caring and loving person, wife, spouse and mother. My hope is that you are lifted up by Grace to get through this challenging time, until you can think of your adoring husband with no tears in your eyes, and with only a smile and joy in you heart treasuring your precious memories and very special and caring relationship. Light & Love Janet
Janet from Childrens Yoga Books in Canada said this on January 20, 2012 at 4:58 pm | Reply
Dear Rachel, Cody and Jakob,
What a beautiful celebration of Kristian’s life. I did not know him, but followed his blog for some time. I have been inspired not only by his words but yours as well, to be a better mother, a better wife, a better friend but mostly a better Christian. To have kept your faith so strong during these difficult years is beautiful to see. Thank you for sharing this. It has majorly impacted my life. May God give you strength and peace to move forward in your life.
Leonie said this on January 20, 2012 at 8:58 pm | Reply
Rachel I’m thinking of you and the boys, kristian was a inspiration to the nation and has saved so many lives by telling his story. I’m so sorry for your loss.
Kellie said this on January 21, 2012 at 12:13 pm | Reply
Dearest Rachel, Cody & Jakob,
The past 24hours of my life have been consumed with the events of Kristian’s life since his blog began. My only regret is not learning about it sooner. The past 24 hours for me have also been consumed with much emotion….every emotion that a person can think of.
I am 33 years old and I know all too well the battle that Kristian fought. I am a Breast cancer survivor….I was diagnosed in July 2009 (my 31st birthday), in the middle of planning my wedding.
With Kristian’s blog brings many tears as I remember my journey but it also brings comfort. As I was reading his blog he was able to verbalize what were only mere thoughts in my own head…..I just didn’t know how to put them into words. Never in my life have I been so deeply touched and so deeply impacted by a complete stranger and I find myself grieving for him in the same way I would for one of my own loved ones. Its absolutely astounding to witness Kristian’s legacy and in my eyes Kristian was one of God’s Angels here on earth….and now…..he’s home. May he find great comfort in the arms of God as the work he was sent to do here on earth has been completed. Completed with such grace….strength….humility….poise and selflessness……never once giving up on his faith.
Forgive me for saying this but I strongly believe Kristian’s life should be made into a movie. Not for the purpose of fame or fortune but to carry on his legacy… to educate people…to reach people…to impact people….to ensure your boys’ future education….to have funds to donate to cancer research or open a cancer clinic in Kristian’s name. I believe whole heartedly this is not the end of his legacy….it is just the beginning.
As you mentioned at Kristian’s celebration, I too don’t believe in “coincidence”. It is no coincidence that I’ve come to know of Kristian Anderson. I, like Kristian, look at my having had cancer as a blessing as I wouldn’t be the person I am today if I never had it. Somehow this is all part of a Master Plan that is far bigger than any one of us and I too have come to a “reawakening” in life (as have many people who have suffered through any sort of adversity). Its too bad that society has conditioned people to think that life is about how “successful” one is rather than living each day with love and conviction….and that Kristian did along with you by his side.
If your boys are raised with only half of the passion and conviction their father had then you have much to be proud of Rachel and my only wish for you is not to mourn his death but to rejoice in the fact that he is HOME….where he belongs….and he smiles down at you, Cody and Jakob everyday.
I thank your family for enriching my life with such beauty. This world is a better place because of your husband. You will ALL be forever in my heart!
Peace and Love Always!
Carolyne Cornelio said this on January 21, 2012 at 2:08 pm | Reply
May you receive comfort from the knowledge of knowing that your wonderful bright light of a husband is now sitting with his maker, out of pain and creating a place for you to share eternity with him. Thank you Rachel and Kristian for being such a wonderful example to the world and showing what true love and faith is all about. May your sons carry on this message through their lives.
Linda Jacobson Segura said this on January 22, 2012 at 5:46 am | Reply
I just learned of Kristian today, as i came across his video to you for your birthday which led me to watch his memorial service and some of his blogs. I was deeply touched by it all. You should be very proud of how Kristian has made such an impact on so many people all over the world and probably didn’t even know it. You are tuely an inspiration to others as well. Thank you for sharing Kristians life and death with us. He will never be forgotten. I pray for you to continue having the strength to get through this diffiicult time. And always know that he is with you through the beautiful gifts God has given you, and thats your sons. Thank you again for sharing a part of your life with us. God Bless you and your family.
kerry clayton said this on January 22, 2012 at 8:52 am | Reply
My wish for you is that your beautiful boys grow up to know who their father was. I hope for family members that continue to tell them anecdotes and remind them of the life his Daddy wanted for them. I hope for friends and close ones that hold you tight and for happy, happy memories of the wonderful marriage you two apparently shared. May you always feel that he does not only live in your children’s heart, but also in yours. I imagine that right now, when you wake up, the first seconds still seem perfect and whole, before your world comes crashing down, just like Kristian experienced it. I hope that soon the fall won’t be as hard and your memories and your hope in Jesus will cushion it.
Lisa said this on January 23, 2012 at 10:55 am | Reply
Dear Rachel,Cody and Jakob: Much love to you all, may you find peace and comfort in your God and one another. Many, many thanks for sharing your husband and father with so many…a brave, inspiring, very human man.
Dr M Hughes said this on January 23, 2012 at 10:23 pm | Reply
I would just like to thank you and Kristian for quite possibly saving my life.
I am a 33 year old female from Freshwater.
A close friend of mine is a friend of your neighbour, Holly & in December last year she was telling me about Kristians battle with bowel cancer. I had seen him on the TV but had not realised how young he was or how aggressive his cancer had become.
Once I found out that he was diagnosed around the same age that I am now, I knew it was time to get a bowel screen done. I had experienced minor symptoms for some time & had been ignoring them. My bowel screen test came back positive for fecal blood & I booked in for a colonoscopy at Dee Why Endoscopy.
Yesterday, I had my colonoscopy. I awoke to be told by my doctor, anaesthetist & nurses that I was very very lucky. The doctor had removed a nasty 2cm precancerous polyp from my colon. My doctor advised that the polyp would likely have turned into cancer in the next few years. Chances are that I would have been faced with fighting a life-threatening bowel cancer in my mid thirties.
I have posted my story on my facebook page & have already had several private messages from friends asking what my symptoms were & where they can purchase the testing kits.
I want to let you know that Kristian will never ever be forgotten. I told all the doctors & nurses that the reason for my getting tested was Kristian. If it weren’t for his strength & willingness to fight his battle publicly & help spread the message that this is not just a seniors cancer, then I would probably have continued to dismiss my symptoms.
Sending lots of love to you and your family & a huge cheers to Kristian up there in heaven.
Carly, Freshwter xx
Carly said this on January 24, 2012 at 11:27 am | Reply
I am so very sorry for your loss. Your husband’s life was an inspiration to me and I pray you find comfort that God will comfort you as only He can. God bless you and your family.
Donna said this on January 25, 2012 at 4:44 am | Reply
Rachel, I continue to think of you and the boys often as well as the lessons about life Kristian taught me. I pray that a month, a year, a decade, a century from now….those lessons will remain. Take Care…
Tricia said this on January 29, 2012 at 1:03 pm | Reply
Rachel, 2 night’s ago was the 12 year anniversary of the night I lost my 15 yeaar okd son to cancer. I’ve had a very heavy heart for days knowing this day was coming. Tonight I can’t sleep because you and your boys and all of yours and Kris’s family are on my mind. I keep you in my prayers and when I lift the Lord’s name up in praise I ask him to lift you all up and surround you with his unexplainable all consuming love. I pray hat you feel Kristian’s undying love holding you close on those nights when you just need him the most. Thinking of you and hopinng that the prayers and love being sent from around the world helps in some way. I know my faith and all the prayers helped us survive such a tremendous loss. God be with you all always.
From Gloria Ball
Wayne, Mi. USA
Gloria Ball said this on January 30, 2012 at 4:01 pm | Reply
Rachel & family,
Just yesterday I came across Kristian’s blog after seeing his birthday video to you. I was compelled to read back through his posting from the past two years and sit here now with tears in my eyes after watching the Celebration service. Tears of joy for Kristian. Tears of sorrow for your loss. Tears of I am unsure what for my own family. You see, my beloved wife was diagnosed with Stage 2 colon cancer in 2009. She underwent a colon resection. In 2010, we got the news that it had spread and was now a Stage 4 cancer. She underwent 6 months of chemo every other week. I know the hours of pain and discomfort she felt and Kristian shared. The vomiting in the shower, the days in bed trying to regain her strength. The countless ball games she was unable to attend due to lack of strength or having to stay out of the sun. In 2011, she underwent another 6 months of chemo ending right before Thanksgiving. We got to spend Thanksgiving eve and day in the hospital because the drugs had stopped her up. Then, this year, only 2 days after Kristian’s Homegoing, she underwent a complete hysterectomy and partial abdomen wall resection. Results of that now indicate that while the doctors believe that they have removed the colon cancer cells in the abdomen area, there are still cells around the pelvic area and are actually cervical cancer in that location. We go in on Monday to schedule for 6 weeks 5-days per week of radiation treatment plus a 2 hour chemo every Friday. And as my beloved said about the radiation treatments, Nausea, I’ve done that. Tired, Been there too. And only 6 weeks…HA! Easy! She is so very strong. She is my Superwoman. She led me to know my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. She has become my best friend, the mother of our awesome son and the love of my life. Kristian’s life story documented and shared with the world here is an awesome part of his legacy. Peace and love and joy be with you Rachel and the boys. Your brother in Him, Larry Arizona USA Shalom
Larry said this on February 2, 2012 at 5:16 pm | Reply
I stumbled upon this page after seeing a viral video on Godvine.com that Khristian made for his wife for her birthday. One of the comments on that video directed me to this blog. I read the final blog posted by Rachel yesterday, but I somehow felt compelled to come back to this page again today. I just finished watching the entire video of Khristian’s memorial celebration, and I cried right along with the rest of you.
I am a single mother of two young children–one of which who has several internal issues being treated by a major medical hospital in the US and another who has Asperger’s syndrome. This past Saturday, I held the hand of my Grandmother as she lost a 12-year battle with cancer. She, too, was secure in her faith and I know she is in the presence of God as I write this. I have found my faith tested more often than not these days, and I admit to having drifted away from the church. After making it through the video of Khristian’s celebration, my love and devotion for God has been renewed.
Thank you for sharing his memorial with those of us who weren’t fortunate enough to be there. Thank you for sharing such a beautiful testimony of an incredible man. I will be praying for your family and will be forever grateful for Khristian as he and his testimony are responsible for leading me back to my church.
Thank you again.
Sarah said this on February 4, 2012 at 9:28 am | Reply
Rachel….I simply have no words other than to say I am deeply sorry for your loss and that I can’t know exactly how you are feeling but I do understand this particular pain as my husband died of cancer 6 weeks ago.
We knew of his diagnosis before we chose to be married and I was blessed to have Michael as my husband for exactly 1year and 1 week before he was taken too soon, just as Kristian was. Michael was also a man of great faith and I know he saw exactly where he was going and he told me he felt completely at peace and knew where his home would be…I miss him terribly, always will…he was my best friend, my greatest Love, my Soulmate and now I pray he watches over me as I pray ths tKirstian watches over you and your beautiful boys.
God bless you all and may you have peace and love and all you need at all times to help you on this lonely road ahead.
Tatjana Kowand said this on February 5, 2012 at 1:37 pm | Reply
It’s not a coincidence that I saw the video Kristian made for Rachel’s birthday as a link on a friend’s Facebook page.. that I was curious about Kristian and found his website.. and his blogs.. and his funeral.. it’s not a coincidence that God has had his finger on my life…
What am I going to do with the time given to me…. I’m back Lord.. I’m back.
Ann said this on February 6, 2012 at 3:10 am | Reply
Then it was all worth it. Just for you.
Kristian Anderson said this on February 6, 2012 at 10:13 pm | Reply
Thinking of you xxxx
Sharnee said this on February 16, 2012 at 8:33 am
you really are my inspiration, im oceans apart, all the way in Kuwait, yet your story has touched me so much ever since i saw you on the Oprah show. Whenever i feel down, or upset or get caught up in my day to day stresses, i think of you, you inspire me to let go of the silly things we get caught up with and focus on my blessings instead. thank you so much Kristian Paul Anderson. You are my hero. helena
helena said this on February 9, 2012 at 4:38 pm | Reply
Rachel, thank you updating your family’s story. Kristian’s life and your life are such a testimony of God’s glory. I’m so sorry for your loss. It amazes me that because of stumbling on a website and seeing Kristian’s birthday wish to you, I can now pray for you and your boys half way around the world.
Kristi said this on February 12, 2012 at 4:32 am | Reply
Rachel how are you going ? How did Cody go at school? I can only imagine how lost you’re feeling, but I hope you will continue to draw strength from the blogs. I/m sure many people are wondering how you’re doing, so if you find it within your heart, please give us an update. God bless you richly & continue to give you peace. xxx
ligia said this on February 17, 2012 at 10:02 am | Reply
May the Lord continue to bless you and your boys. May you always feel His spirit near to comfort and sustain you. And may you know in the quiet moments of your sorrow that part of the great plan of happiness is that families can be together forever…
“Now, concerning the state of the soul between death and the resurrection—Behold, it has been made known unto me by an angel, that the spirits of all men, as soon as they are departed from this mortal body, yea, the spirits of all men, whether they be good or evil, are taken home to that God who gave them life.
And then shall it come to pass, that the spirits of those who are righteous are received into a state of happiness, which is called paradise, a state of rest, a state of peace, where they shall rest from all their troubles and from all care, and sorrow.”
“Wherefore, whoso believeth in God might with surety hope for a better world, yea, even a place at the right hand of God, which hope cometh of faith, maketh an anchor to the souls of men, which would make them sure and steadfast, always abounding in good works, being led to glorify God.”
Love from a brother whose heart and prayers are with you.
Angel Shelburne said this on February 24, 2012 at 5:55 pm | Reply
Rachel I wanted to tell you that Kristian was truly truly amazing, my mum will receive her first chemotherapy session on monday for stage 4 bowel cancer, and she is receiving the drug that he lobbied so hard for. We are truly grateful as a family, and pray that it helps to save mum’s life and give her time with her loving family. I hope you and the boys are doing ok, thank you again xxx
faye said this on February 24, 2012 at 6:52 pm | Reply
You were – still are and will always be – an amazing family. Kristian’s story has inspired so many people… he will always be remembered not only by you, his family, but by millons of people that remember his story and have somehow read and accompanied your (yes, your and not only his) struggle. You are in our prayers. May God always be with all of you.
Susana Barroso said this on March 7, 2012 at 9:06 am | Reply
I just stopped by to let you know that I am thinking of you and hoping that you are getting through the days with much love and support by those around you.
onlyhalfnuts said this on April 2, 2012 at 2:03 am | Reply
you don’t know me. but i got to know your family’s story from the “oprah” show. kristian’s video and your appearance on “oprah” was so moving. i had wondered what had happened to your family’s story since it aired. i am so very sorry for your loss.
d. fuentes said this on April 2, 2012 at 4:49 pm | Reply
We still think of you every day. Much love to Rachel, Kody and Jacob today…I watched the video from Kristian’s funeral in its entirety. What a beautiful service to honor such a noble, courageous and strong man. Our hearts are with you, Rachel, and your family. XOXOXO
Garner, NC, USA
Alison Ayres Overstreet said this on April 3, 2012 at 5:38 am | Reply
rachel, i have only just finished watching christian’s celebration… it brings tears to my eyes. he was such an inspiration to many, you were so brave standing up their saying those beautiful words to your husband, i am sure he was very proud of you. i am sure he is looking down on you and your family.. you are an amazing woman. my hearts with you and your family.. XOXOXO
Taylor said this on April 3, 2012 at 10:30 am | Reply
I just met you here…there is no coincidence.thank you rachel.
wesna said this on April 8, 2012 at 3:35 am | Reply
ok, its april now, but im having a bad day, so i had to come here again and watch this beautiful service! your story and both your strenghth inspired so many people! just feel every wind blow, as if it was kris touching you, you are both so strong!!!
tania said this on April 10, 2012 at 7:31 pm | Reply
i was told, that a lump in my breast turned into cancer (Biopsie before, doctors said, not to worry too much) just before easter! i’m 40yrs old from germany, have a gorgeous 12yr old daughter, but apart from her, there is noone! i’m too scared to go in for treatment, what will happen to her, on the other side, what will happen, if i’m not there anymore? and then i found this blog ( i heard of kristian before, but never found the blog) and been sitting here all day, reading his thoughts, how he fought a fight, that he lost with great sadness, but he was so cherished to have you, rachel, your family and friends beside him! admittingly, i’ve never been a “church-person”, but i do believe, there is some sort of guidance out there! and finding and reading this blog NOW got me thinking on so many levels! i haven’t cried that much in a long time! i hope, i find the strenght to decide, what’s the right thing to do! may you and your family and friends be blessed with all the love there is!
Tanja said this on April 10, 2012 at 11:18 pm | Reply
he was such and inspiration i have brought the book and read it one night. thought are with you rachel and the boys
kayla said this on April 11, 2012 at 12:14 pm | Reply
I feel lead to write and thank you for so openly sharing your very personal journey with Kristian as he battled cancer. I’ve been a Christian since I was very young and never have I been so inspired by another. I can only imagine the impact you have had on countless others – both in your devotion to each other and in your faithfulness to your Lord and Saviour, no matter what came your way. I’ve just purchased a copy of “The Message” – what Kristian quoted frequently in his blog – spurred on to learn more of the scripture Kristian knew well and never stopped believing. I think of you and your boys often and pray for God’s peace whenever the loneliness threatens to overtake you.
Vancouver, BC, Canada
Lila Yewchuk said this on April 12, 2012 at 3:03 pm | Reply
Your family’s story touched moved and inspired me beyond words. Kristian never lost faith in God. I used to be so angry at my life and my circumstances and felt like God hated me and I was angry at God. But seeing Kristian’s unwavering faith changed this for me. Even though he is not physically here, he will always live on through his legacy.
I am praying for you and your gorgeous boys.
JD said this on April 21, 2012 at 7:02 pm | Reply
Rachel, thanks for allowing Kristen’s farewell from earth to be shared. My close friend Iris fought 22 months agt a brain tumor in Germany, she too went into the arms of God with a tear running down her cheek, (Jan 5th, 2010) leaving behind her husband & 4 adult children. I miss her still but know we’ll be reunited one day!
Fi said this on April 27, 2012 at 4:51 pm | Reply
I’m so very sorry. Breaks my heart to know of your loss. I don’t know exactly how you feel but I do know the pain of losing a husband. I lost mine 3 years ago in a very tragic manner. He was bipolar and died by suicide. I still miss him so and still daydream about what I could have done differently…but it has gotten easier to deal with as time goes by. I know it doesn’t seem possible but it will get easier for you too. God has held me the entire time and I am so thankful that you too have Him by your side. I know it is harder for you since you have children together…let them be a forever reminder of the beautiful love you shared. I think we all must endure tragic times for a season but we must remember that joy comes in the morning. God bless… Jeannie
willithelp said this on May 20, 2012 at 9:56 am | Reply
I purchased ‘Days like these’ today and have read it cover to cover already, what a truly inspirational yet such a sad story, my heart goes out to you and your beautiful sons, may God and Kristian watch over you always. Thank you for sharing xoxox
Mel Clement said this on May 24, 2012 at 10:06 pm | Reply
Thought you might like the Linkin park song “Castle of Glass” cos i thought it resonates with the blog.
specstator said this on July 5, 2012 at 9:08 pm | Reply
He touched me today as he has done before.. He was a true blessing from God.
I am thankful.
Jean said this on December 14, 2012 at 4:04 am | Reply
I had every intention of coming to the celebration, but was caught up at work something that upset me greatly at the time, but seeing the performers list, and knowing the goodness of God it was for others sake’s that I didn’t go. When talking to an old friend the other day she told me this was on here and I want to say thankyou SO MUCH for leaving it hear, it meant a lot to me to be able to see the celebration.
I was always inspired if not occasionally at logger heads with Christian having once had cancer myself, I kept telling him to choose life as I did, but I can truly now see that, as with our Lord there is far more purpose and achievement and lives touched and changed by his passing and the battle before hand than could ever have been achieved if a normal life was lived.
While this was and I am sure still is greatly painful, and my heart goes out to you, know that in this way he has fully lived like the Lord and still lives, just not here anymore.
Again thankyou for putting this online and for your incredible words at the celebration, you also are a great inspiration,
and I pray as with “Job”, all things will be renewed in your life bigger and better than before, the Lord is faithful and WILL repay your faithfulness.
jetto72 said this on June 8, 2013 at 10:49 am | Reply
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