Better Days

“And you asked me what I want this year
And I’ll try to make this kind and clear
Just a chance that maybe we’ll find better days

‘Cause I don’t need boxes wrapped in strings
Or designer love and empty things
Just a chance that maybe we’ll find better days”

Better days indeed.

December 2010 has been full of them and I am incredibly grateful.

On December 9th I had my first post SIR blood test. The test showed that not only was my liver functioning perfectly after the radioactive blast, it also showed that after only 4 weeks my cancer markers had decreased significantly…. by 65%, in fact. On top of that, it was decided that I should have a 3 month break from chemotherapy while the radiation continued to do it’s thing. I nearly cried at the sound of both of these bits of information… particularly the chemo rest. I have endured 13 months of chemo non-stop and I was finding it very difficult emotionally. To think that I might have a Christmas where I wasn’t flat on my back, staring at the ceiling and drifting in and out of consciousness was just the best news I’d had in a long time. I get to be semi-normal this Christmas and so far it feels pretty good.

On December 13th, Rachel and I went to see U2 in Sydney. We had been given access to ‘Red Zone’ tickets by a friend of mine and when it came time to pay for them I was told not to worry. These were not inexpensive tickets… not by a long shot… and yet they were given with a smile and a hug.

On December 14th we had the privilege of attending the Oprah Winfrey show at the Sydney Opera House, which was pretty cool and a few days later Rachel’s parents arrived from New Zealand for a visit and we were able to get away to Port Stephens on the north coast for some time in the sun.

Right now Rachel is wrapping the last of the kids Christmas presents. They’re in bed sleeping soundly after a big day and I’m sure I’ll be following soon. The radiation still makes me very tired for most of the day. They weren’t kidding when they said I’d be tired like never before. I’ve certainly never experienced anything quite like it. But it’s ok.. it means the radiation is working.

So much amazing stuff has happened to us this month (some I can’t talk about yet, you’ll have to wait and see) that most of the time I’m having to stop and check if it is really actually happening.

I see such momentum building. A kinetic energy that is near unstoppable because it has the force of Heaven behind it. I don’t understand the way things are unfolding but I can clearly see the hand of God in all of it… and even though I know it to be true, sometimes I still can’t quite believe it.

I don’t know how to pray a holy prayer or how to conduct myself before Almighty God. I swear sometimes. If you cut me off in traffic I’ll probably flip you the bird. And if you threaten my wife or kids I’ll probably give you a black eye. I’m a walking contradiction.

But despite all of my character flaws (and yes, there are many), God has been answering my cry for help… almost daily. Long before I knew what kind of help I needed, He had already set the wheels in motion. Like a trail of dominoes carefully laid out, things are falling into place one after the other with such precision and timing that at times I have to pinch myself.

Everyday I see God keeping his promises to me. Not in a way I would ever have expected, but still so far and above what I could even imagine. All of this is just the start. You’re going to see something miraculous take place here… I can feel it. In fact, I’d bet my life on it. You’re going to witness the God of Heaven reach into my life and do something that’s never been seen before. Not because I’m special. I’ve already told you I’m not…. but because of his compassion and mercy… because of his great love for me.

You’re going to see it and you’re going to know…. He did it.

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~ by Kristian Anderson on December 24, 2010.

34 Responses to “Better Days”

  1. Merry Christmas to you and your family Kristan.
    “You’ve gotta dance like there’s nobody watching,
    Love like you’ll never be hurt,
    Sing like there’s nobody listening,
    And live like it’s heaven on earth.”
    Enjoy your Christmas, eat, drink and be happy. As a oncology RN (orginally from NZ, now in QLD) I have learnt that “you just never know” with any cancers.
    May your faith continue to be strong. You must have a very special angel watching over you to have such a positive result with all your tests.
    With all my love, Sally, Wife, mother of twin boys aged 7 and nurse. xxx

  2. Merry Christmas! Such WONDERFUL news! Enjoy each precious day with your family and keep grinning. God has blessed you mightily – may you enjoy your Christmas and each day forward with continued better health. I still have you in my nightly prayers.
    The Grandma from America with non hodgkins lymphoma……

  3. I wanted to know news about you (reading here) and today you make me happy. Kristian all people in a different part of the world are with you and your family, we’ll win!

    Best wishes from Galicia.

  4. Merry Christmas Kris, to you and Rach and the boys. So proud of the way you’re all living this story out… God is amazing, you guys are too xx

  5. Kristian,

    Great that you are getting better. Yes, there has been many blessings showered on your family and yourself, despite the sufferings that you have endured. God has a plan for you – you have to believe in that.

    There will be more blessings to come in the new year. Like Oprah say, “Take the year to get well!” Be kind to yourself and do not worry too much. Trust in Him who works miracles.

    Merry Christmas and a wonderful 2011 ahead for you and your family.

    Blessings!

  6. Yo, glad you mentioned those character flaws, cause if you didn’t I was going to. Mate, you have such an awesome story and a real talent for telling it as well. I’ve really enjoyed this page, you’ve inspired me and made me feel like there is so much to live for. Thanks for sharing your story in such an accessible way and I look forward to seeing what God does with you in the coming years. It’s clearly not an easy road, and I can only imagine what it must be like for you and Rach, but man I am so thankful for your courage and faith in this situation. Can’t wait to see you again sometime, hopefully this week if time permits. Merry Christmas to You, Rach and the boys. Love G, M and Co.

  7. Kristian,
    Glad to hear the good news. Have a great Christmeas and New Year.
    Before you call God will answer….

    Have you looked at the Abraham-Hicks site and you tube videos on healing and the cure to all illness?

    Its important to visualise your life the way you want it..not the way it is…..

    People all over the world have been touched by you and your family.Yes we can feel the miracles, love and healing being sent to you.When you are soo tired thats when the body uses sleep to heal, and heal it will…trust that.
    Everyone is special,including you.
    Remember to make time for JOY each day..JOY and Fun are the cracks in the dark days that let the light get in.
    The light is on and the whole world sees it through you.
    If you get weary we will hold the vision steady for you for perfect health always.So relax – all is well and miracles abound.
    Have fun with that lovely wife and kids and look forward with JOY.

  8. Kristian, Merry Christmas to you and your family! Reading your post this morning, amidst the hustle of the holiday, made me pause — and my heart swelled with joy for you, and gratitude for such a loving God in your life and my own. Wishing you a blessed 2011 full of good health and more joys!

  9. Merry Christmas to you and your family. Thank you for continuing to share your story and give glory to God. I’m so glad you get a 3-month break from chemo!
    From Erika, the oncology nurse in Seattle.

  10. God is sooo good! Kristian, may this Christmas be extra special, you are often in our prayers. God’s blessings to you and your loved ones. Ineke Jones

  11. Your latest post is a blessing and gives me hope. God bless and enjoy the holidays with your family.

  12. What an awesome, uplifting, hope-filled post. It was wonderful to read and share in your wonderful news. I know you and your family will have a wonderful Christmas with these blessings surrounding you. God Bless and thanks for sharing your life with us. It’s amazing to see God’s hand in your life in such a spectacular way.

  13. Your words are always moving, and full of inspiration. Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us, they are priceless.
    Merry Christmas to you and yours-

  14. Wonderful, wonderful news! Merry Christmas to you, Kristian!
    Anne from Tacoma, Washington

  15. Merry Christmas to you Kristian, thinking of you! Best wishes – Jo from the UK 🙂 x

  16. Merry Christmas from New Jersey, USA. I read your blog regularly and keep you in my prayers and thoughts. Such wonderful news in today’s post. What a Christmas present! God Bless!

  17. What wonderful news to read on Christmas morning! Hope you and your family had a beautiful Christmas together!

  18. That’s amazing news. Your gratefulness is inspiring – in the depths of hard times it is so easy to lose sight of the big picture but not you. May 2011 be overflowing with better days.

  19. Hi Kristian,
    Great news about your treatment.
    I have been following your story closely as i was diagnoised with satge 4 Cancer both bowel and liver back in Sept 2010. The liver is the big problem as it has spread right through so no surgery can be done. No ned to explain this to you. Your results give me hope for the future. Chemo is still working but slowly after treatment no 7. Maybe I wiil look at this treatment during this year???
    Have a great Xmas and New year and make the most of feeling “normal ” again at least fr a while.
    Good luck
    David Brill

  20. Merry Christmas to you and Rachel. It’s so good to hear the radiation is working,now that your liver working it will help give you the strength you need to fight off the rest of the cancer. It’s good to read between the lines that you have the determination to not give up! I’ve had cancer twice and won the battle,now 4 years on you wouldn’t no I had been so sick, if you would like to see a photo of me it’s on my Facebook site at http://www.facebook.com/KiwiHeather.V.T.W
    All the best for 2011.
    Heather

  21. I found your blog by accident and I am glad I did… thanks. I will be praying for you and your precious family. Merry Christmas from Tennessee.

  22. Praise God!!!!! 😀

  23. Oh I am SO glad for those test results… Merry Christmas to you and your family !

    Will keep you in my prayers.

  24. I found you after your YouTube video became popular; I follow you each month and marvel at you! I wish you the very best and continue to pray that God keeps on keeping you with your beautiful family! Have a wonderful new year; you deserve it!!!!!!

    Canton, Ohio
    USA

  25. What a beautiful post & what wonderful news. I hope you had a wonderful Christmas day with your family. You are in my prayers.

  26. From the other side of the world. Praying for you as you sleep.

  27. Merry Christmas to you and your family 🙂
    I live in NZ and have been following your story from over the ditch! I am so happy to hear your news and have been following your story, which I found just by accident almost a year ago.
    Thank you for sharing your story.
    God bless! Best wishes for 2011
    Lisa, Jiimmy Miles and family. Dunedin NZ

  28. This was so encouraging to read, therefore I can only imagine how encouraged you all must be, going through this. I am humbled, by how much you allow your life to be used for God’s Glory. We keep praying for you and your family for strength, hope, and healing.

  29. This post sounds full of hope – it is good to hear.
    I hope you had a wonderful Christmas.
    Fingers crossed that 2011 is a healthy year for you. 🙂

  30. I’ve been reading your posts now since you posted the video with the background music “marry me”, made me cry, can’t deny that, I was so scared you wouldn’t make it, and then I saw you on the Oprah show via the shorts on Ch9, I am so happy to see you happily with your family, I only pray that if anything like that happens to me in the future I can conduct it with the grace and dignity that you have, ALL POWER TO YOU AND YOUR FAMILY. XXXXX

  31. i am so happy for you Kristian, and thank you for your words, they are so inpiring and made me feel there is so much to live for

  32. Hi Kristian,

    I don’t know you, but love you and think of you and pray for you often. I am so happy for you. I’ll be praying that this momentum keeps on building and moving your forward towards healing.

    Many blessings,
    Becky

  33. Hi Kristian,

    Congrats on such great news. I have been following your story (like the rest of Australia) mainly because after I saw your incredibly moving video to Rachel, with tears in my eyes….not tears of sadness, but tears of joy, because of the love you conveyed to her and your boys, it restored my faith in humanity. Your wedding video is also equally moving and heartfelt. What wonderful people you are. May 2011 bless you and your family with all kinds of new wonderful and magical marvels and may you continue to grow strong and get totally well. With so many people behind you, not just in Australia but the world over…you certainly have inspired many and you are in the prayers and thoughts of thousands. Fi

  34. Kristian just saw your story on Oprah, what a lovely family you have. So happy to hear you are doing well. I wish you and your family the best for 2011. God is with you.

    Kim
    From California

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