Bitter/Sweet

December was pretty good, so I should have expected January to bite back…. hard.

And it did.

We went to Perth (Western Australia) to spend a couple of weeks with my parents for Christmas and New Year. Not long after arriving I began to feel a little off colour. I would break out in sweats or start shivering, I wasn’t keeping much food down and mostly didn’t feel like eating anyway and to top it all off the heat in Perth was seriously oppressive. There were a string of 40 degrees (celsius) days shortly after our arrival that made it pretty much impossible to do anything comfortably.

After a little while I was beginning to worry I had pneumonia. I had all the symptoms and it was a known side effect of the SIRT, so I took myself to the doctor to get it checked out. Thankfully, chest x-rays were able to show it was not pneumonia. So what was it?

Two days later I got my first clue…. blood in the toilet. It was the bowel tumour.

Fast forward a few days and we’re back home in Sydney. I’m feeling worse than before so I head up to the Oncology ward to see my nurses. CT scans are ordered and confirm what everyone thought…. the tumour had grown and was now blocking the bowel. And by “blocking” I mean it was packed. I’m admitted immediately and the surgeon is called. Before the day is out I am booked in the next morning for emergency bowel surgery.

It’s serious. Life threatening, in fact.

The morning of the surgery I am prepped as best as I possibly can be. This ‘preparation’ comes in the form of a Barium Enema. Just lovely. Then it’s back into bed to wait for Rachel to arrive before heading down to theatre. I wasn’t going anywhere without her.

Rachel arrives and we start to get a bit teary. I’m afraid and so is she. We cannot get a clear answer on what to expect because the doctor’s don’t know themselves. They’re working with the information provided by the scans and won’t know exactly what they’re dealing with until they cut me open….. right down the middle.

So…

We get to the operating theatre and it’s me, the surgeon and the anaesthetist. I know the surgeon. He took my appendix out years ago and also performed the colonoscopy that found the tumour in the first place. I ask him for the truth….. and he gives it to me…. straight out.

This is an emergency procedure with an unprepared bowel (read: full to the limit). It’s going to be messy. There’s an 80% chance I’m going to lose my entire large colon. In fact, it’s almost guaranteed. The tumour is very close to some important arteries and so it’s quite unlikely they will attempt to remove it. It’s too risky. And…there’s a 5% chance I won’t need a colostomy bag for the rest of my life. That’s just how it is. He’s sorry, but he doesn’t really have a choice.

Now it’s just me in the corridor.

God?

Help.

Please God, no colostomy bag, no taking of my large colon. Please. Please. Please.

Please do something.

Rachel comes in…. we’re both crying. I tell her how much I love her and to make sure the boys know how much their Daddy loved them…. just in case I don’t wake up. The nurse leads her away in tears and I’m wheeled inside.

Heavy eyes.

Out.

The next thing I remember is hearing Rachel’s voice and the beeping of the heart rate monitor. I can’t open my eyes, can’t move my body, but I can feel her hand holding mine. I try to squeeze it to let her know I’m here. It works. She felt it.

I made it.

As the days progress I am kept nil by mouth. (All up for 7 days, so I have lost a lot of weight) It’s not until about day two or three post-op that Rachel tells me what has happened.

The nurse rang her as soon as the surgery was over. She said they were totally surprised when they opened me up. Things were not entirely as they appeared on the scan. They inspected the bowel for signs of more cancer and found none so proceeded to remove the tumour from my bowel as it was….. and they got the whole thing.

My bowel is now cancer free.

There are a string of events leading up to this operation that, in isolation, just appear to be random events. When you put them together and realise what each event means in relation to the other it’s very, very clear…

I called. God answered.

After going through another ten days recovery in hospital I am home and on the mend.

Bitter?

It will be a slow and painful recovery and I will have a bag for two months. I have what’s known as a Stoma…. my bowel ‘exit’ now appears next to my belly button. It’s like looking at a cheap horror movie with my insides actually…. outside. The bag obviously needs changing daily and it’s incredibly confronting for me. I’ve also never experienced physical pain like this before. I’m getting better but am on a reasonable pain management regime for the next few weeks… morphine etc. I can’t pick anything up and the stomach wound is very, very tender. This means contact with Cody and Jakob must be limited to protect myself. Very, very hard to deal with.

Sweet?

The stoma is totally reversible and is only temporary. My bowel will be put back together and will function naturally again. What was expected to be a worst-case situation has turned around entirely overnight to be the best possible outcome.

And the sweetest of all is that my bowel cancer is now gone.

I’m going to let you draw your own conclusions as to what has happened here…. but in my mind’s eye I see my God standing at the foot of my bed. He nods silently, with a surety that only my creator can have.

“I am the LORD your God
who takes hold of your right hand
and says to you, Do not fear;
I will help you.”

(Isaiah 41:13)


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~ by Kristian Anderson on January 20, 2011.

73 Responses to “Bitter/Sweet”

  1. Although a harrowing story, I am sitting here nearly in tears after reading it- tears of joy. That’s right- big guy crying.

    I have been following your blog ever since you made that beautiful video for your wife’s birthday.

    It has been truly amazing to follow your story and how you stay so positive given the situation you have found yourself in. You are nothing short of an inspiration to all.

    I take strength from knowing just how resilient the human spirit can be, and truly hope that I can muster a simple ounce of your courage for my daily life.

    I am not a religious person, nor have I really pondered on thoughts of God. But I guess that there are some things that truly can not be explained and are perhaps the working of a higher power.

    I wish you nothing but the best of health and happiness for you and your family.

  2. This would have to be the best thing I have read in weeks, months…. I am just so over joyed for you all.

    God bless!

  3. β€œI am the LORD your God
    who takes hold of your right hand
    and says to you, Do not fear;
    I will help you.”(Isaiah 41:13)
    Wonderful, wonderful news…..God bless you and your precious family – continue healing through His grace and your excellent Doctors. I lift you up in prayer each night…The Grandma from America with non-hodgkins lymphoma

  4. Wonderful news! Wish I could hug you all.
    God Bless.

  5. Hi Kristian,

    Well done.You are a winner.You don’t deserve this.I had the same went to the toilet found blood ended up in emergency had 2 blood transfusions due to loss of blood.They did a colonoscopy found a tumor and operated and took it out.Took me 3 days to get out of the hospital bed.The word nightmare comes to mind.I was aneamic due to the loss of blood.I looked into a lot of this and started doing juices at first beetroot which boosted the iron level and within a month my level was above normal.Keep on going and imprint a postive word on your mind because you have done really well getting through this.I did a bit of meditation saying to myself over and over I will win.I did juices and eat 3 pieces of fruit a day.I eat paw paw and tried the apricot seeds.Do a search on the internet on these.My theory was to take control so I felt I was.God helped me to get through this as helped you.You have done really well to get through this and you will win.

  6. Wow, that was quite a scare. Such an incredibly good outcome! My mom had a stoma when she had her bladder out–I hope your belly wound heals quicker than hers did! Now, WHY didn’t they take the tumor out earlier?!

    I’m so happy for you! Now to just take care of that liver and you’re completely free of the big c!

    God bless you and yours!

  7. Hallelluah to God..Paraise to him…You know i was 8 yrs whwn the war atarted in Lebanon..Everytime the bombs were around us ..I cried to God and he answered too…There is church of St Charbel in Sydney, a congregation of the maronite church…I hope you will have the chance to visit. You will always in my prayers..God bless and your family

  8. I am so happy that with the help of God you have overcome another giant hurdle.Wishing you a speedy recovery, so you can once again hold your beautiful wife and sons in your arms again.
    You are always in my thoughts and prayers.

  9. Two words with my eyes filled with tears…

    God works.

    Amen.

  10. Oh Kristian, this is just such wonderful news! I know how scary it must have been for you all prior to the surgery, but my goodness, the miracles you deserve are coming to fruition! I am in awe of your post tonight, and just so so happy for you all!!!!! Thank the beautiful Lord above.
    Take the time now to rest and recover – there will be plenty of time for cuddles with those beautiful boys of yours, just you wait and see! πŸ™‚ In the meantime, what happens now? Will they continue with SIRT in order to treat your liver…?
    I cannot wait to tell Rob when he wakes up tomorrow – he has his last chemo treatment next week, followed by 12 months of Avastin, but all is looking well here too, touch wood πŸ™‚ His CT scans show his liver is clear now, his tumour markers are now classed as ‘normal’ and another colonoscopy in late March should bring us some closure on this chapter.
    I have been so grateful for your updates, and thank God for bringing you and your story into our lives – in my darkest moments, your amazing attitude has given us so much strength, more than you could ever know. I think 2011 will give us all so many reasons to give thanks, and celebrate πŸ™‚
    Thinking of you all, and sending our love and warmest wishes!!!!
    Well done Kris, you are an absolute champion! Now get well SOON!!!! πŸ™‚ ❀ xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

  11. Hi Rach and christian

    Linda and I and our whole family have watched you and rach struggle through this massive challenge in your life from the time mum told us but have never really felt like we could truly understand what you have gone through enough to be able to comprehend the depth of grief and emotion to even be able to contribute to this site…i still feel like it’s still too personal. We all watch your progress through this sight religiously and always love your attitude towards life as it presents itself. It has been an incredible journey and i can’t stress enough how often i use you and your family as an inspiration to understand and overcome the problems i face in my life. Mike Linda Sara and Tessa

  12. I am so happy for you, Kristian!!! God bless you and your family.

  13. What wonderful news!!!! I was in tears reading your post today, I feared at the start that the news was not going to be positive.But it made my day.
    I am so happy for you all. I continue to hold you all in my thoughts & on my prayer candle. You really put into perspective the things we consider important & the stuff we get bent out of shape over.
    May you continue to get stronger & enjoy magical times with your sons & Rachel.
    Amanda, I hope Rob too continues to get stronger. I will keep him too on my prayer candle.

    Jean xxx

  14. Wow – you were saying on Facebook it was a positive outcome, but I don’t think I realised just how amazing it was until I read this… I’m in tears, God is good.

    We’ll keep praying for you!

    Elizabeth (Luke & Lydia)

  15. I am so happy for you and your family. Your posts have effected me deeply. I was reading your latest in the car and gave a yell at the good news. My husband asked what was going on and I explained the good news to him. Praise God. Faith works!

    Continue to fight the fight and keep the faith and you will be cancer free in no time!!!

    God bless!

  16. hallelujah πŸ™‚ .. there are no limits with God, thank goodness!

  17. Oh that’s wonderful news! Praise the Lord!

  18. I saw your story on Oprah, and was drawn to it, and could feel the presence of God through the screen and new you were a Christian. Your story was so touching and I pray the God of healing and mercy would certainly heal you completely and wholly. I know the financial burden Oprah helped with is a major relief. Know there is a sister in the US thinking and praying for you and excited to see God’s hand at work!

  19. I just saw your story on Oprah today and was so moved, I wanted to find out how you were doing, how you and your lovely family were doing.
    So happy to hear that things with your surgery worked out well, I know you have a tough fight ahead, I wish you well.
    I don’t have a strong faith in God, but if I did I would pray for you. What I can tell you is that life for all of us is both bad and good, just hold tight for the good, it always comes.

    Allison in Canada.

  20. Like a lot of your friends and followers I too was dreading reading on !!
    Absolutely fantabulous news, I am so happy for you all.
    Wishing you lots of cuddles with your boys and wife soon xx

  21. What amazingly strong indiviuals you are, and your story was moving. I saw you today on Oprahs adventure in Sydney. May you continue to be blessed and God’s protection over you and your family. Such great news about the bowel cancer removed. Stay strong and may you continue to let your light shine on others!

  22. I just saw your clip on Oprah, your story has touched my heart so dearly. It made me realize how loved ones can be fine one moment, and the next fatally ill…every moment should be cherished…I wish you a speedy recovery and a long healthy life with your beautiful family! I can’t wait until my husband gets home tonight so I can give him the biggest hug ever!

  23. Words can’t express how I feel right now. All I can say is thank you Jesus! His grace is never ending! I just watched the Oprah Show and saw you and your beautiful family and I rejoiced with you when she announced of the huge blessing for you. Wow! Our God is so good! Brother, this is only the beginning of what is yet to come. I’m praying and believing for a total complete healing on your body. Some may say I’m crazy for saying such things but I know our God and with a God like ours….theres nothing He can’t do. Jesus suffered on the cross for our diseases and sickness so we wouldn’t have to today and I believe this strongly for you my brother. I love you and your family in Christ and I’m here for anything. I thank you Jesus in advance for Kristian is already healed because He is your beloved. Hallelujah! Amen!

  24. Jesus’ miracle!!! We love you, Bill & Kari

  25. I live in the United States, and randomly saw your story today on Oprah. I googled your youtube video which brought me to your blog!

    It is sooo touching for me to hear your story (close to home as I am a happily married mother of 2 – soon to be 3 – young boys), and especially to learn you are a man, and family, of Christian faith.

    I have added your blog to my list and will continue to check in on your progress and HEALING.

    God bless!

  26. Dear Kristian,

    I just saw your appearance on Oprah. I had come across your video recently an shared with my boyfriend. You are a true testament of our Father’s infintite love and what faith can accomplish.

    You said that you were going through treatment for the sake of your sons and wife, that they would know how much you loved them.
    Believe me when I say that they know…I lost my father this past March after a lenghty illness. He too could have decided to give up but that’s not who he was. His family meant everything to him and is why he fought so long and hard. Your story has touched my heart so deeply…my eyes are filled with tears. I too understand the importance of time…the precious moments.

    I know that you will stand strong and your faith and the faith of us all will deliver you through. God has truly made you an instrument of his plan. Thank you for allowing us all into your journey. Know that many are with you in prayer as you continue your battle and await your next triumph.

    …to have the faith of a mustardseed…God bless.

  27. Dear Kristian,
    I saw your video and story on the Oprah show today (looks like i wasn’t the only one!), i found it so touching ( i was in tears during the show) that i had to see the whole birthday video. You are an amazing video editor and i very much enjoyed the video! You and Rachel are so luck to have each other and I am so happy to hear about the latest developments! I completely believe in the miracles God works, and it looks as though he surely was looking out for you, Hope all continues to go well and Good luck with everything! Even though you are a perfect stranger to me, i feel for you and everything you are going through and even this post left me with tears. Thank you for sharing, God Bless you and your family.

  28. p.s. I really enjoy your blog title and name!

  29. Praise God! πŸ™‚ I love reading how God work miracles in our lives and this post just made my day. May our Jehovah-Rophi continue to be with you, watch over you and your family. Do take care of that stoma!

    Agape,
    Elaine

  30. Dear Kristian, Thank you for your willingness to share your experience with the world through your blog. Your story and courage inspire me to remember the things that are truly important.
    You know what? I don’t hardly ever watch Oprah. But today, for “some reason” I decided to kill 30 minutes and see what was on TV. I’m happy to report that those 30 minutes did not die in vain! πŸ™‚ I’m on the opposite side of the world, our upbringings and family history have most likely never crossed paths, and yet as I watched you on TV (and youtube) today, there was something about you both that seemed so Real, so Familiar. Romans 8 makes mention of how the Spirit Himself bears witness with our spirit… I realize now that the familiar person I thought I recognized today was the Spirit Himself. (How great is that!?!) His reality quietly shone brightly through you both. Thank you.
    You and your family are now in my prayers. May you both live to see your grandchildren scribble with crayons on your freshly painted walls, trample through your favorite flower beds and look at you with the same eyes of glee and wonder that your sons now do. Be blessed!
    (Oh, and I love, love, LOVE the video you made for your wife’s birthday!)

  31. Mark
    Just read and heard about this. Praying for you all in NT.
    Philip & Deanne Gerber

  32. God bless you Kris!

  33. Saw your story on Oprah and eagerly googled your video and read your blog. Extremely glad that your are recovering well. Just want to wish you and your family all the best. And that the beautiful clip you made is worth playing over and over again.

  34. Kristian I am so happy for you and Rachel! I also watched you on oprah and had to search for the video. I cried through it all. I could see the love you have for her and your son’s. I am so happy that you are recovering. Miracles really do happen!!!. And to Rachel you are a strong wife and mother and your love for him shows.Your boys will grow up to see what love their parents have for each other and what faith in God can do. May God continue to bless you and your family.

  35. I have been looking forward to seeing you on Oprah and thought that once it aired you would add to your blog so I was thrilled to see your latest update. I was scared at first but as I read I knew it had to have a happy ending and it did. I wish you a speedy recovery from your surgery and all the best for a wonderful year with your family.

    Cheers from Monique on Vancouver Island BC Canada

  36. Peace and Blessings to you, Kristian, and your family! I just watched your segment on Oprah and was very moved. I have prayed for you and stand in agreement with you for God to heal and restore you. I’d like to recommend some wonderful teaching on healing that I believe will bless you back to your healthy place. Please go to http://www.awmi.net and look for God Wants You Well and A Better Way to Pray. These will change your life. It would be my pleasure to purchase these for you and send to you. Just send your address to my email and consider it done. Praying God’s comfort and peace until you RECEIVE YOUR HEALING!! By the stripes of Jesus, you WERE healed…ALREADY DONE!!

    Eric – Dallas, TX USA

  37. I got to see ya’ll on Oprah today…after taking care of a sick little one, I had a few minutes to sit down and I turned it on right as they began your story….I was so moved by your story. Miracles happen every day and I thank God that we get to witness them. We witnessed a miracle in this past 5 mths that involved my 13 yr old son. Long story short, he had a physical for football in August and the dr heard a heart murmur. We had to follow up with a Pediatric Cardiologist and after having and echo and ekg done, they sent us to Little Rock, AR for a heart cath. The dr’s were puzzled because both of his main coronary arteries were enlarged and they’d never seen this before. We had the heart cath not expecting anything terrible (because that’s what we were told) They finished the cath in just 1 hr, not the 2-3 we were told…and we were TOTALLY not prepared for what we were about to be told. He was born with a VERY rare heart defect that he shouldn’t have lived a yr with, much less, 13 yrs. He was the picture of health, played football, basketball, baseball….was your normal active 13 yr old boy. Our life came to a complete halt! The defect is called ALCAPA and there isn’t any cases recorded of anyone living with this older that a yr or so. The truth was, he should have had a massive heart attack by the time he was 1. God obviously had different plans…they did open heart surgery the end of Oct. to “reroute” a coronary from his pulmonary artery to his aorta. So far so good….but what I’ve learned thru this journey, is that I never knew my faith could be this strong. The risks of us allowing them to just do the surgery on him were unbelievable, but what other options did we have?? As dark as it looked “medically speaking”, our faith carried us thru and we had a peace knowing that he was going to make it thru this and have quite a testimony to share! God has BIG plans for you and your family!! I’m so thankful that I had a minute to turn the tv on today….you are very encouraging and inspirational. My family will continue to pray for you and your family….and keep believing in that miracle…God Bless!!

  38. I have been following your blog since i saw Rachel’s video. I came back today after seeing you on Oprah. I heart fell into my stomach as i started to read and sob. Then, the tears became tears of joy!! I love your simple prayer of “God, help.” Now, my prayers are filled with praise. God bless you, brother.

  39. Kristian,
    Good news from a bad start and great to hear you are doing well. I have both liver & Bowel cancer and was told I have 6 to 18 months to live. I have been on Chemo for 5 months to firstly control the liver tumas and am waiting to be able to get rid of the bowel cancer. I can only dream of how good it must feel to have at least the bowel cancer out of your body. Your blog gives me insipration and am positive in my mind I will overcome the dreaded cancer. Keep fighting and remember you are not alone.
    David

  40. Dear Kristian and Rachel,
    I felt inspired to get in touch with you after seeing your story on Oprah today. I need to share this story with you of my dad who was cured from cancer 15-years ago by using herbs. My dad was diagnosed with leukemia, bone cancer, and lymphoma of which was considered terminal. At the time, my parents heard about a cancer cure that had worked for an elderly woman and they decided to try it. This cure acts as a parasite cleanse, of which cancer is considered a parasite, it consists of a strict regimen of 3 kinds of herbs; black walnut, wormwood, and cloves. He did this plan strictly for 3 months and went back to his doctor where they discovered that ALL OF HIS CANCER WAS GONE! He has continued to take these herbs once a week as maintenance to keep the cancer away and it has worked. 15-years have passed since his diagnosis and he remains cancer free today! This cure works for ALL CANCERS and claims it is never too late. We have referred many other people to this cure, including an 82-year-old man with prostate cancer and a woman with breast cancer and it worked for both of them too. Currently I have an aunt with quickly spreading cancer that started in her uterus and has spread to her liver and lungs, she is half-way through this cure and we have high hopes for her. When people hear about this story they think it’s too good to be true and that we are just trying to sell something. It’s not like that-we really do just want to help. You can buy these herbs anywhere you can find a store that sells herbs. If you would like some more information, get in touch with me and I can e-mail you the exact plan that my dad did. Take care and I’ll remember you in my prayers!

    Nikki-Salt Lake City, UT USA

    • One thing I didn’t mention was that my dad DID NOT do any kind of of cancer treatments like chemo or radiation, just the herbs.

  41. Saw your story on Oprah today. Your strength amazes me. I learned in my Bible study this week that we grow closest with Christ through adversity. I can see you have put your trust in Him! He is such a good God! Praise the Lord your cancer is GONE!!!! I will keep praying for you. So touched by your video, story of love and family and this wonderful website. Thank you for reminding me what really matters in this life.
    Missy

  42. I never watch Oprah, but since I worked with Youth With a Mission in Australia 17 years ago and still have a best friend in Tasmania, I decided to watch tonight.

    Your story hit me hard. My husband is now 36, but at age 33 was diagnosed with Stage 3 Rectal Cancer. You never think you will ever deal with something like this so young. My husband has Lynch syndrome, a rare genetic defect and our geneticist recommended his Colon be removed. It has been a difficult road, and we have faced so much, but know that the only way we got through was our faith in God.

    I will keep you and Rachel in my prayers. I know there is a plan in all, we don’t always understand or get the answer that we want, but know that God is watching out for your family and wants the best for you more than even you do! I am constantly encouraged by the Casting Crowns song “Praise you in this Storm”. Maybe it will bring you some peace if you find it.

    Blessings to you and your beautiful family.

  43. Kristian,

    Keep the faith. God works in miraculous ways that will astound you. He sent you His angel, Oprah to assemble millions of people around the world who will send you their support, prayers and love.

    With such an army all fighting for your family and you, do you think your illness will stand a chance in the midst of all the love and prayers coming your way? No way!! You will be triumphant!

    It is the bitter that makes life all the more sweeter. This is Ying/Yang – without the bitter, would you know what is sweet? So, be grateful for all that you have – the good, the bad, the joy and the sufferings… πŸ™‚ Think about the beautiful sunshine when the storm has passed.

    Blessings!!

  44. Wow! What an amazing post! So incredibly happy it all turned out well. You and your beautiful family are such an inspiration. I wish you all the best and hope that things continue to go so amazingly well for you! ((((Hugs)))) from Japan!

  45. I am a fellow cancer survivor (if that is the right word as I too am still undergoing treatment). I had heard of your story a while back but a friend gave me the link to this blog tonight. I am so happy for you that they got all of it. What a relief. It sounds like you have a great bunch of doctors working for you – you are definately blessed.

    I guess, as I read through some of your blog posts, I felt the need to ask a few questions. Were you strong with your faith before the Cancers? Do you have moments where you feel totally lost and alone? Do you often wonder “why me?”.

    I was diagnosed with Breast Cancer in Aug/Sept 09 and my cancer grew over 5cm in two months with the strongest Chemo they had trying to kill it. So, I had a mastectomy and lymph node clearance and so far am cancer-free. I am about to come off Herceptin which I have been on for over a year now – and I am so scared. I feel like whatever is laying there dormant, will sneak its ugly little head back somewhere else in my body. I want the faith you have. I want to believe that God has a plan for me and that if I trust in Him, that he will stand beside me. I just find it so hard.

    I have gone through a low patch over the last few months where I guess I have considered alternatives – but like you, I have a small family (6yo, 3yo and 2yo girls) and I am fighting for them.

    We seem to be getting bad news after bad news and I keep feeling “why us?”. I know there are people out there dealing with a lot worse than us – and I try to think of them to put myself “in check” – but its hard. I hate that Cancer invaded my life. Why is it that Cancer seems to affect the “good” people – I have not met one evil person in an Oncology Ward!

    I would love to hear your insight – what is it that helps you to keep the faith so strongly. I was born Catholic and although I don’t attend regular mass (I live in a rural area with a priest that visits once a month!) I do believe in God.

    I wish you good health, happy memories and much love. I will continue to read your blog and await your complete Cancer Free posts that I am sure will follow soon enough.

    • Hi! I read your message to Kristian and I hope you get this. If you will, read my message that’s just 4 up from yours, it starts as “Dear Kristian and Rachel.” I have a story that you may love to hear about using herbs to cure your breast cancer and using them to keep it and other cancers away. I’ll check back from time to time and if you’re interested, I’ll give you more info.

      Take care!
      -Nikki

  46. My Dad had a stoma when he had bowel cancer and surgery, they definitely aren’t a picnic in the park but totally reversible so that IS good news.

    I’m THRILLED to read that your bowel is now cancer free, such wonderful wonderful news.

    Here’s hoping the year continues to deliver you such good things.

    ~x~

  47. My husband John and I were “introduced” to you at the Sydney Oprah house in December. You/your family have been in our thoughts and prayers, may God continue to bless and keep you.

    Sending you love and light.

    Virginia, United States

  48. Dear Kristian and Rachel,

    I saw you guys on the Oprah show yesterday and then found the you tube video you made for Rachel’s birthday and now have found your blog. Thanks so much for sharing your story with us. Your faith and courage encourage all of us. I will be praying for you and your beautiful family!!

  49. I follow your blog a little out of order.SIRT 3 an hour ago and now more up to date. There are powerful reasons we rally. HOPE and LOVE surely are in your corner. Like minds can be found at http://www.beatlivertumors.org Wonderful people who have shared and would share their experiences of being a patient. Perhaps my suggestion comes at the perfect time for you.

  50. I happened to catch your story on Oprah while jogging at the gym (I typically don’t watch her anymore with her ever changing spiritual philosophies) and found myself crying over your families touching and difficult journey. My main thought was WOW – God has taken your cancer – and given you a world stage upon which to share His miraculous healing power and love. Such an important reminder and testament to how He turns ALL things to the good of those who love Him. Blessings to you and your sweet family from mine here in Washington State. Sending you prayers and lifting up my faith with yours that God will be glorified and you will be healed. Auderer Family

  51. i heard about your story on oprah and thinks that it’s just amazing how you manage to find the bright side of things even through the hards times you’ve been through. but it’s always good to find the good side of things when they look bad.
    good day and god bless

  52. I have landed here as a result of the Oprah show, by means of youtube. There I saw a link to your wedding video and saw the prayer over you, which thrilled me to know that you are believers. I feel that myself and many others are being drawn to you to bring on the prayer warriors for this journey you are traveling through. Although you have the comfort of our Savior, please know that my family will be praying for you and that I will share your blog with others so that the link of prayer warriors may continue to grow and be continuous. Praise God for the success of the surgery. Praying for a great and complete recovery.

  53. Fantastic news about being bowel cancer free! I will continue to send prayers and positive thoughts your way.

  54. May you be lifted up by those praying for you. GOD bless you!

  55. I had hoped that with things going quiet on the blog that you were having some much deserved family fun over Christmas. I’m so sorry to hear what you have been through this month but you still amaze me with how you can find the positive in this situation. Fingers crossed every cell was removed. My mother in law had a temporary colostomy after a bowel obstruction. She hated it. When the opportunity came to have it reversed 2 years later she actually considered leaving it. She had mastered the care of it and grown to accept it. She did make the choice to have the reversal and it went well. I’m sure when your opportunity to return to normal function arrives you will grasp it with both hands but in the meantime have faith that it is just a step on your path to a normal life with your gorgeous family.

  56. Dear Kristian & Rachael,

    I have followed your inspirational story since you first sent your message of love to Rachael. That was absolutely beautiful. May each step in your journey as you regain your health & strength be a wonderful experience for you & your family. We do forget on occasion how precious each moment in our lives are. They say it is not the breaths that we take, but each moment that takes our breath away! So great to hear such wonderful news, I couldn’t be happier for you all.

    In our journey throughout life let’s pray that we all will be guided in our faith, forever knowing the power of God’s enduring strength & eternal love.

    God Bless you all
    Vicki

  57. Your story has greatly affected me. Thank you for sharing your life so freely – especially at a time of such unimaginable challenges. God bless you.

    “Change is created by those whose imaginations are bigger than their circumstances.”

  58. I did not understand everything but what i understand is That we must always trust in us in god. In french we say : rien n est impossible. Which means “Nothing” is impossible i am so happy for you!!!

  59. I watched you on Oprah the other day & was moved by your story. I am so happy to hear that your bladder is cancer free. I’ll keep you & yours in my prayers.

  60. Yay!! Keep strong and positive. I just went thru cancer myself. Chemo for 6 months masectomy and now radiation. I had the worst kind of breat cancer. (IBC) stage 3. I stayed positive and strong. I also believe in the far infrared sauna that I sat in everyday thru all the treatments for 60 minutes daily at 130degrees. Still do. And I have a wonderful husband like you have a wife. My cancer is gone 100% now. Doctors are amazed. I feel my sauna and positive attitude saved my life. A friend of mine had cancer everywhere in his body. No chemo just the sauna and vit c. He’s been cancer free for 8 years now. Just info. I’m sending your way. Sending prayers your way. Congratulations on your fight so far. Good work!! πŸ™‚

  61. Healed! Hallelujah! πŸ™‚

    Glory to God in the Highest! πŸ™‚

    Faithful forever! πŸ™‚

  62. Praise God for your faith, for the love and care of a good wife, and for this healing. Thanks for the reminder of what God can do if we ask for His help. Amen!

  63. Oh yeah, C’mon, that is awesome. Even though I kind of knew what had happened, it’s awesome reading it as you saw it and felt it. Unreal man. Keep up the fight.

  64. I cried reading this. SO glad you came out okay. I’m keeping you in my prayers, and adding your wife to them.

    (It must have been so hard to leave you for the surgery… Honestly, I think I would rather have been in your shoes. I lost my dad to cancer a year ago and he told me once that watching us hurt was the hardest, that he’d gladly go through all the pain and fighting if it meant we didn’t have to. And I remember many times wishing I could take his place, at least for a while.)

    God please continue your work in Kristian & Rachael’s life together. Let them know that You are close to them, that you walk with them every step. And give Rachael the strength to do all the things she needs to do. Help her when she feels pulled in all directions. Give her courage. Bless her with peace. Lift her up. And please make Kristian well again.

  65. Kristian – I have been following your blog since I saw the video on Train’s website and have read every entry. I pray for you every morning while I’m driving to work, and I knew in my heart that God was watching over you! I am so, so happy to hear this news and will continue to pray for you and wish you a speedy recovery!

  66. You are incredibly brave and Rachel sounds like a phenomenal woman.
    My fingers are perpetually crossed for you. πŸ™‚

  67. I am so taken by your story. There’s got to be a book in there somewhere.
    Very pleased for the recent surgery’s outcome.
    Onward & upward.
    God doesn’t send us anything more than He knows we can cope with.
    He know that you & Rachel are very strong together & will prevail, with His gifts, such as the good outcome from this surgery.
    …& you can have the Colostomy reversed. YAY!

    • Michelle

      I have heard that comment so often “God doesn’t send us anything more than He knows we can cope with”. I really find it offensive. As a cancer patient myself – it makes me think – why me – what did i do wrong. And as a Catholic it makes me think – if this is true, God really isn’t a nice person if he sends such suffering.

      God isn’t a bad person. He doesn’t send suffering to his people. He doesn’t send suffering to one person because they have a strong relationship. You know, not every strong relationship can handle it. The emotions and depression that comes along with a cancer diagnosis are hard for any family to deal with. When you have a patient, and then the carer – its hard for the carer to understand why we get upset and just want to curl up and die and let it take us. We want to fight, we want to live, but some days we just want it to be all over. For some people, as strong as they are together, its hard to hear your loved one wants to give up.

      I know you were trying to be supportive with your words, but we need to be very careful with what we say. Please don’t take offence – but i have found its best to let people know what their words mean, then to let them keep saying it and keep upsetting me.

  68. My sister posted your video on facebook, where I blubbered like a baby after watching it. I had to search you out and see how you were. My joy for you is overwhelming. The love you have for your wife, children, and God is inspiring. I wish you all the best.

  69. Such courage !!
    I am a mum of a baby born with Hirshsprungs Disease (his bowel didn’t have fibres to allow it to open)
    He at 3 months had a colostomy bag put on so I understand the pain and frustration of a stoma.
    He is now 8 and had a bowel pull through and stoma reversal and couldn’t be better. The scar is hardly noticable and he loves tellling people he used to “poo” from here (pointing near his belly button).
    Keep fighting for your wife and children. It’s all going tobe worth it in the end. You have such a beautiful family and we are thinking of you.

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