Gardening

I have a lot of different voices in my ear most days. There’s the medical opinions, the fake-medical-conspiracy opinions, the voices of good friends ringing to see how I am, the voice of fear that comes in whenever things don’t look so good to the human eye…. and then there’s my own voice…. my thoughts. Many times my own thoughts are like ten thousand crossed telephone wires and it’s a real struggle to still them.

In times like these I have to listen out carefully for the one voice that will never force itself into my world. The voice that will not huff and puff and stomp away if it goes unheeded, the voice that will speak oh-so-softly to me until I come around…. the still, small voice of the spirit of God.

I have been walking a rough path for the last 18 months or so now. Anyone who has endured cancer treatment will understand immediately the agony of this path, not only on your own body and life but in the lives of those that love you. But in the middle of all of that, I have learnt to recognise the quiet voice of God. To date it has not let me down nor steered me in the wrong direction. It brings peace and comfort and allows me a chance to… breathe….when the reality of my world would seek to crush the very air from my lungs.

And so I’m making sure this is the one voice that doesn’t get ignored. I’m weeding out the voices that would seek to bring harm, no matter how well intentioned and allowing only those that bring hope and peace. I know there are still those who read this blog who would call me naive, ignorant or even ‘idiotic’ as one lovely soul put it. But you know what? I don’t care.

My house, my rules. It’s my garden and I decide what grows in it.

And in the center of that garden I choose to plant myself, by the unfailing word of God.

Jeremiah 17:7-8 says:

7 “…blessed is the one who trusts in the LORD,
whose confidence is in him.
8 They will be like a tree planted by the water
that sends out its roots by the stream.
It does not fear when heat comes;
its leaves are always green.
It has no worries in a year of drought
and never fails to bear fruit.”

I have no idea what the future holds but I know that if I am anchored with deep roots, whatever comes can huff and puff but when it’s all said and done, I will still be standing strong. My hope lies not in doctors or medicine, though I am very grateful for the help they bring. My hope, my confidence, is in the God of Heaven.

He does not and cannot lie.

Watch and see.

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~ by Kristian Anderson on February 26, 2011.

20 Responses to “Gardening”

  1. My dear Christian…If I could I would give you half of the breaths I take and half of any organ in my body to make you whole again because you have so much to live for and with the strength of our lord and savior you will live on… You have always amazed me with the strength you show and that gives me the strength to fight whatever comes my way…. So fight on my unknown friend and I will give my strength to you to help you along your LONG LONG life…

  2. I continue to lift you up in prayer and pray for health, healing and that each day is filled with the warmth of love from those around you.

  3. Beautiful

  4. Dear Kristian, I believe we have been told that God is in the quiet places in our hearts, minds, and souls.

    Exodus 14:14, The Lord will fight for you; you have only to be still.

    Psalm 37:7, Be still in the presence of the Lord, and wait patiently for him to act.

    Psalm 46:10, Be still, and know that I am God.

    Psalm 89:8-9 O Lord God Almighty, who is like you? You rule over the surging sea; when its waves mount up, you still them.

    I will say a quiet prayer for you and your family.

  5. Praise the Lord for your testimony Kristian – you are an inspiration to all. May God Bless you and your precious family.

  6. Amen! At my church YA, we’ve been doing a short series on hearing the whisper of God and I have to say it’s challenging at the best of times and being in the position you are in, I’m just so amazed and encouraged that through all the different voices that you hear, through the hustle and bustle of a family, dr appointments and treatment, that you have a strong sense of God, that you can hear him so clearly. Trust that God will continue to fill you with His divine peace and that He’ll continue to lay His healing hand on you. Keep fighting Kristian. God bless

  7. My thought and prayers are with you in Gods wonderful garden.
    God bless you and your beautiful family always.

  8. You Kristian are extraordinary and your faith is inspiring.
    I say Thankyou – I can only hope to have an ounce of your faith and spirit.

  9. Along this journey, you seem to have developed the voice of a very eloquent and beautiful writer. 🙂

  10. I hope and pray you have been having some good days. You have been on my mind. It sounds like there has been some negativiry in your life. Its not idiotic or naive to have hope and believe in a higher power. Its what enriches our lives especially in times of trouble. Keep listening to that voice and grab each day with both hands. Know you have family and friends who with you each step of the way.

    God bless.

  11. You and your thoughts are simply beautiful. The world is lucky to hear you, and I am in awe of your strength and faith.

  12. That is the voice you should be listening to! What a special person you are. Thoughts and prayers continue to flow your way and to your family also.

  13. Beautifully said. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

  14. Always thinking of you.

  15. I am always blessed and touched by your words Kris.. I too need to do some weeding..too many voices gets very tiring and confusing… Listening to the One who does not try to shout over the top but is the one true voice is a lesson for us all…Bless you & your family

  16. I love reading your Blog Kristian. You write in a way that inspires everybody who reads your Blogs. Whether there is negative or positive responses people are hearing the good news of Jesus. Man God has a funny way of getting His name proclaimed throughout the world by His servant you. I am not saying God gave you cancer but it does seem to be the catylst of getting people to rethink their own lives about God. I so hope and pray the cancer and the side affects of the Drugs are taken away from you, you definatly do not deserve them. However I will miss your ministry through your blog writings.

  17. I am heartbroken for the pain you have endured and continue to endure. Words to express don’t come forth. You and your family are an inspiration. I will pray, pray, pray for your recovery and for a long and beautiful future with your lovely family. Thank you for sharing your experiences on your blog.

  18. I’ve been reading your blog for almost a year now and am continually inspired by your faith and courage. I really loved this post and just wanted to thank you for reminding me about getting back to the basics. My prayers are always with you and your family.

  19. Dear Friend,

    You are truly an inspiration to all of us. Thank you for posting your blog. I read it often and thank our Lord for your amazing progress and for your strong faith in Him. He will never ever leave you nor forsake. “You, O Lord, keep my lamp burning; my God turns my darkness into light. With you help I can advance against a troop; with my God I can scale a wall.” Psalm 18:28-29 Blessings and Prayers from Texas

  20. Amen. I’m learning from you. Thank you for sharing and making known the glory of God that comes in the midst of suffering.

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