We’ve been on holiday in the USA for the past 3 weeks. It’s the first time in 20 months that I’ve had a break from treatment and it has been a chance to start to feel normal again and recharge the batteries. My skin has just now started to get back to it’s pre-Erbitux self. Only mild itching and burning, and the bleeding has stopped pretty much completely.

I had bloods taken yesterday and I got my results back just a few minutes ago.

It isn’t good.

My markers have tripled while we were away and all are now out of “safe” zones, including liver enzymes. This makes the third time I’ve had them come down only to go back up and have to start all over again. I have a meeting with my Oncologist on Friday and I’m guessing he will order more CT scans to determine whether or not the increase in my markers is due to the cancer spreading elsewhere or just due to activity in the liver. Either way it’s probably going to mean more chemo, a liver resection or more radiation…. or all three. More chemo means more Erbitux… and back to mutant status. More burning, more itching and more bleeding. It also means there’s no way they will consider reversing my stoma for the time being. *sigh*

I don’t really have anymore to add right now. I was driving along pretty happily but it appears I have run over some nails on the road…. and all the air has gone out of my tires.

I’ll let you know more when I do.

Please pray.



~ by Kristian Anderson on July 20, 2011.

27 Responses to “YoYo”

  1. Oh Kristian what a horrible blow to your progress. I am praying for you and your beautiful family. You can beat this!

  2. Prayers, as requested, coming your way from our family in Brisbane. We specialise in beating the medical odds in our household. I will fervently pray that you can do the same.

  3. Praying, praying from Tacoma, Washington…

  4. Praying for you and your family in North Carolina, USA. Your writings have touched my heart. As a daughter who mourns the loss of her father from cancer, I can empathize how devastating this news is to you. You have so many people pulling for you, Kristian. Keep fighting! You are an inspiration to us all.


  5. I’ve been following your blog for a while. You’ve been on my heart the last few days. I’m praying. May God’s grace continue to be enough for you.
    Kaylee in Oregon

  6. I’ve been following your blog as well, Kristian. We are praying for healing as only God can do, and pulling for you and your beautiful family. Blessings from Wisconsin!

  7. Praying for you from Holland, God has a plan for us all, not always in the way we want, the journey is hard sometimes, but your courage is an inspiration to many.

  8. What a terrible blow for you, I’m so sorry.
    My thoughts are with you. Be strong.

  9. Sending you strength, light and healing. xxoo

  10. Sitting here in Brisbane, feeling sick to my stomach. I’m so sorry to hear of these results, so sorry. That is such a blow.

    My love to you, and to Rachel and the children. Praying for a clear plan from your next appointment.


  11. Oh Kristian. That sucks. I hate cancer. Stupid disease. I will pray that the results are just an anomily and that scans prove that your body is healing. If only the body would listen to your heart and soul then this would all be over already. I hope to hear your positive news soon. xx (from Nth Qld, Australia)

  12. May your life never become only a definition of your sickness- you are much more (as you can see by the number of people worldwide who are touched by your honest and insightful words). I pray that whatever trouble comes, God gives you the strength to not lose your beautiful spirit to this disease.

  13. Hey there Kristian,
    I am not a man of faith but I have been reading and watching for a while, am sorry to hear about the results not being as hoped , fingers crossed it is , but I am happy that you got a break and went on holidays, I am sure the kids loved it nearly as much as you did. I still remember my first trip to America,
    I also just wanted to say thanks from those who don’t have means to have access to your blogs, I am sure there is a more detailed back story, but getting Erbitux onto the PBS list is such a wonderful thing. So for all those that are unable to say thanks I say it for them.
    Kudos to you.

  14. Still praying for you every day from Auckland. Thank you for continuing to update us as you go through both the ups and the downs.
    Andrea Penman

  15. Christian,

    Praying for you from Dallas, Texas, USA. Thank you again for allowing us to walk through this with you.


  16. Prayers – absolutely. Praying for you and your precious family……and will do so forever…..
    Grandma from North Carolina, USA with non hodgkins lymphoma

  17. Will be on the edge of my seat until your next post. Hopefully your trip to the U.S. was a good one. Thinking about you and your family often. Sending you love and light.

  18. What, you came on holiday to the USA and didn’t come to visit me?? How could you! LOL! Glad you had a good trip and time to recoup your strength. Now you’ll have the strength to go head-on into this once and for all! Go in with guns a’blazing, my friend!! You know that “monster” you said you become when on the drugs to stop the itching? Become that monster AGAINST the cancer!! Scare the crap out of the cancer, make it never want to come back! AAARRGH!! Have the kids join in, tell them that they must become monsters as well to scare the cancer away! ROAR at the top of your lungs!! I hope to be able to hear that roar all the way here in Orlando!!!

    I pray for you often, Kristian! Keep the faith! ❤

  19. You and your family continue to be in my daily prayers.

  20. Never give up. You can do this!

  21. I have been following your blog for a while now and I have been praying for you the whole time. It warms my heart to see Christians from all over the world joining together in prayer. I know you feel discouraged right now but I feel God gave you time to get healthier and to get stronger before preparing for the next battle with the enemy. I believe in the power of prayer and therefore I believe you will win this battle. Keep the faith, Kristian. We are praying for you here in Alabama.

  22. I pray for you.
    Love from Sweden

  23. Praying for you from Wellington, NZ

  24. praying 4 you

  25. Kristen you are in prayers and thoughts a lot lately and that will continue. I was just given the news yesterday that I am cancer free after having a stage 3 inflammatory breast cancer. I too made the choice of chemotherapy radiation and surgery but also did a lot of natural treatments. I would like to tell you about Protocel It is a liquid formula taken every 4 hours that breaks down and kills cancer cells without damaging your healthy cells. You can get detailed information about it in a book called outsmart your cancer 2nd edition by Tanya Harter Pierce, MA, MFCC. My naturalpathic dr is putting me on this to make sure all is gone to avoid reoccurrence she has other stage 4 cancer patients that have had great results with it. By using only this. Just a thought for you incase you want to go a different direction with your treatment. I know that if I had to go thru chemotherapy Again i wouldn’t. I think my body has had enough and there are other good options if one decides. If you would like to call my naturalpathic dr her name is Nancy Patterson in Great Falls Mt. Her number is (406)453-1254. Please tell the receptionist a bit about your health because it takes at least 6 months to get into her but she takes cases in an order of most needed and I think you’d be at the top o the list. She also does appt. By phone if your unable to fly in. Be strong and positive. Praying for you daily. Take care and try to enjoy every day. Breath, smile and laugh.

  26. I am so glad you and your family could have some time away together in the US. It must have been good to recharge your batteries with them and have a break from treatment.

    I wish you a safe return home and that you find a good treatment plan with your doctor when you return.

    Thinking and praying for you and your family.

    Love from Switzerland

  27. There is a purpose and a plan for each of us. In my own life, I try to find the message/lesson in the madness. By sharing your journey we are all better for it and more appreciative of each day we have. Thank you. I am praying for you all the time. Stay positive, keep fighting, never give up.
    Hugs from Toronto, Canada.

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