Ring the bells that still can ring

Forget your perfect offering

There is a crack in everything

That’s how the light gets in

Those are the words of Leonard Cohen, from the song ‘Anthem’. I quite like them. They feel like a good fit for me these days.

My name is Kristian Anderson.

I’m 34 years old.

I have a wife, Rachel, and two children… Cody (3) and Jakob (18mths).

I also have cancer…. in my bowel and in my liver. I was diagnosed on October 6, 2009.

This blog is designed to keep our friends and loved ones updated with what’s happening in our world as we walk through the battle with cancer. There will be music and video posted here at times that encourage us and help us along the way. If you’re the copyright owner of any of the works presented here and have an issue with their use, please contact me via email (musikwerks (at) mac (dot) com) to sort it out.

For all our friends and family, thank you so much for your support and prayers. There are not words to describe the way we feel towards you. Thank you for standing with us, wherever you are on the planet.

This is not over. Stick around and you will see miracles. You will know there is a God in heaven and when you see what He does, you will know it was Him and nothing I have done.

John 3:30 (The Message)

“This is the assigned moment for Him to move into the center, while I slip off to the sidelines.”



176 Responses to “About”

  1. Kristian, I am gobsmacked! Your faith shines through every word in your blog. Thank you for sharing so openly how things are with you as you fight the good fight. Our prayers will continue for you and your precious family. Ineke Jones

  2. Hi Sweet Thing! (as they say in Texas, USA). We send our prayers from Queenstown, New Zealand. We think there is a place here waiting for you to come have breakfast at. Maybe a spa pool and an outdoor fireplace….maybe a trip on the TSS Earnslaw or a walk through QT Gardens…maybe a meal at Gantleys or a beautiful drive to Glenorchy. Sorry though, no children under 12 years so looks like just a romantic hide-a-way with your gorgeous bride!!! God bless and keep you. We will see you here in the New Year! Love, B & K

  3. Kris and Rachel,

    My name is Missi Perkins. My sister is Kari Moers from Queenstown, NZ. She has shared your story with us as well as your site. WOW!!!! What a blessing it has been to read your blog. Your story has touched us and your writing is a true gift!!
    Please know that me and my husband will continue to lift you and your family up in prayer. We serve an amazing God who is going to do great things in and through you. Thanks for your testimony. I know God is painting a beautiful portrait of your life right now and I can wait to hear about the finished product!! Hang in there and know that we will be lifting you up in prayer. God bless and thanks for sharing your story about a God who doesn’t make mistakes. Jeremiah 29:11

    • Missi,

      My name is Tom Taggart. I used to fly with Bill Moers on the Gulf of Mexico in 1978. He and I last emailed via the pencarrow.net contact email in 2011.

      I am trying to locate him and re-establish contact.

      If you can contact him, please ask Bill to email me at:

      Thank you!

      Tom T

  4. Dear Kris & Rach,

    Our prayers are with you as you keep on walking forward, every day a step closer to your miracle. Your faith is inspiring, you truly know what it’s like to feel that switch click over inside your heart that says, “Bring it on, Satan… cos I’m standing with Him and you’re gonna take the fall!”. I wish it was a sprint you were running, not a marathon, but we’re holding you up in our prayers and your blog is 1) beautifully written and as I said before, inspiring and 2) going to be an amazing testimony very soon. Sending our love to you guys and your gorgeous little guys too xoxo Cara & Ty Wiggins

  5. Hi,
    Wow you have made us all cry.
    I am a journalist and would be honored to learn more about your story.
    Can you tell me know how do I contact you please.

  6. Hi Kristian
    Awesome video and your amazing big heart shines through like a bright light for sure. Brought tears to my eyes too and I have some information you may find helpful. You are obviously a courageous soul and I hope it might help you and your family.

    Here are a few websites that may give you a deeper understanding of what is going on at a cellular level if you are interested. There are many others I can direct you to as well if you are interested. Just let me know and I would be happy to send you a list of resources I have discovered over time … but today these are the best ones I would recommend to you … also to watch the videos the doctor has made … http://www.drthomaslodi.com or http://www.anoasisofhealing.com
    All the best. Jenny

  7. You are a legend mate!

  8. Hi Kristian,
    I just saw your video and then read your blog from the start.
    you’re an inspiration, thank you for sharing you’re story!
    Keep up the fight as i know you will

  9. Kristian,

    That was a wonderful video. It was wonderful to see the love you have for your wife. It was the kind of love I saw my brother have for his fiance during his struggle with metastatic gastric cancer (one of the youngest in Australia at age 23). Cancer is a bitch, but you can beat it and you will. As you no doubt know, its a roller coaster ride of emotions, but remember you have your wife and children to keep you smiling. Have faith in your doctors and their experience and what is meant to be will be.

    Stay strong


  10. Hi Kristian and Rachel, Best wishes for both of you through this tough journey. Your blog has been a special insight into the day to day challenges of treatment and I am honoured that you have shared your story with us. Please continue with your prayers, hope and optimism that tomorrow will be better than today. My thoughts and prayers are with you. You are not alone. With kind regards, Zillah

  11. Hi Kristian,

    I have just finished reading your blog from the start after seeing your video on a friends Facebook. You’ve had me in tears more than a few times, and all I can say to you and your family is that I wish you all the strength in the world to overcome what you’ve been faced with.

    All the best

  12. Hi Kristian,
    Your video is absolutely amazing. I work for a current affairs show in New Zealand and we would love to talk to you and your gorgeous wife. It would be great if you could let me know the best way to contact you. Thanks so much

  13. Kristian;
    I just saw your video and bookmarked your blog. I don’t know how to say this the way it is in my head, but here it goes:
    All the weddings in all the world, don’t compare to the love that is in your video. You are awesome and even though I don’t know you, I will think of you every day. You rock.
    And, Happy Birthday Rachel!

  14. Hi Kristian, you are so famous in NZ right now because everyone’s talking about your video. Check it out in the NZHerald and Stuff websites. I’m sure everyone’s telling you that you’re a legend. But above all else, that video showed your undying love for Rachel and very few husbands would go that distance to show their love. Good on you. We pray you’ll fight this cancer and the Lord will bestow His goodness and blessings upon you and your family. Take good care. xx

  15. Your blog is incredible and has touched me deeply. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Continue to have faith in God’s love.

  16. Kristian, I saw the video you made for your wife..beautiful and almost had me in tears (like many who saw it). I don’t know you and you don’t know me, but looks like you and I both know Jesus, so that makes us family. I pray that the Lord God will heal you of this illness and make you whole again, not because of anything you or anyone else has said or done, but out of His love for you. Jesus is our Great Physician and if He can raise Lazarus, He sure can cure you, if it be His will. I pray He does, so that you and your wife and kids can spend many many wonderful years together. It is in His hands and may His will be done in your life and that of your wife and kids. God bless you my friend. in Christ, Sri

  17. Hi Kristian, I’ve just watched the birthday video to Rachel and wanted to let you know that it is without a doubt the most touching, beautiful and magnificent brithday wish I have ever witnessed.
    I’m so sorry for what you’re going through, and am sending every good vibe I possess your way. Stay strong and optimistic and know that you’re in my thoughts and prayers.You are inspiring, all the very best to you and your family x

  18. Hi Kristian! I am so glad that you continue to have faith throughout your ordeal. You are amazing, as are your wife and kids. Reading your blog has been so inspirational to me. Your video post for Rachel was beautiful.

    Keep fighting and you will win!

    Happy Birthday Rachel 🙂

  19. Hi,
    I shared your video on facebook and showed my husband. I love every second of it, you guys seem like a great family. We wish you the fast recovery and all the hope in the world.
    Love, ali and nick from Long Island, New York

  20. Hi Kristian,

    Your video for your wife was so sweet, amazing. Im sure you get flooded with messages of love everyday but it cant hurt to have one more!
    Your spirit is so bright, it is so kind of you to share your experience with us all. Your story makes me cry, but more because your faith and love is so touching than out of pity.
    My partner and i would only be so lucky to have what you have after seven years of marriage and i wish for 50 more years for you.

  21. I am praying for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  22. Sending you love, hope, and a very big hug from Singapore.

  23. Hi Kristian,
    Thank you for sharing this web site of boldness, hope and love. May your message be an inspiration also for many people out here.
    Thank you

  24. wow – you are amazing as is your wife and children…thank you for sharing this very special blog with us

  25. Beautiful and amazing and thought that I was fine until the two boys appear in the screen…and that’s when I felt that tear start to slide down my cheek….prayers and good thoughts are sent your way from Texas….

  26. Hi. First saw “Rachel’s Birthday Letter” at Just Jared ( http://justjared.buzznet.com/2010/09/02/hugh-jackman-guest-stars-in-emotional-video/). This is…simply breathtaking! It made me cry. It makes me cry everytime!
    You’re incredible!

  27. Aloha!

    I just saw your video through a facebook friend. Wonderful thing, this viral media…exponentially increasing the numbers of us cheering you on and adding you and your family to our prayers. There is strength in both prayers and numbers!

    I’m a survivor, and remember all that comes with chemo and markers and all. Your faith will keep you strong…shining that light into even the darkest corners.

  28. You are such wonderful person!
    I have got through a cancer like yours.
    It’s truly too hard.
    To be strong is to believe each second on yourself that you can go through is really outstanding.
    You are so young and so lovely husband and father.
    I will write you back about cells – it was very important as a possibility to positive chimio results.
    You are courageous, you are really someone to be admired.

  29. Hello Kris,
    After seeing you & your family on the Today show this morning I had to write. I to was diagnosed with Bowel Cancer in March this year…the “Bus that hit me” after being told that news is not what you wish on anyone..you just cannot accept that its affected you.
    But I stuck two fingers up to the creeping illness and decided to fight…several procedures & operations later i have come out the other side in the last few weeks. My specialist has done such a superb job I really cannot express my gratitude in words alone to him & his team..Kris it can be beaten just believe in yourself and the support from your family, friends, and the wonderful doctors & nurses in the medical system, they all do such a fantastic job and I wish you all the best with your fight..never give up.

  30. As promised I am back to send you directions about wild and mutant cells.


    I have read about and talked and discussed and finally demanded to my oncologist to discover if my cells were wild or mutant. I expected the result for about two weeks. Cells were wild. I discovered my colon cancer and a little bit later liver methastase on October 2008. From my point of view it’s truly important to know about what kind of cancer cells are yours. It’s amazing because no one talks about. But once I spoke to my oncologist she helped to discover it. Wish you all the happiness because you are really a very strong person and a family is always a family – with your lovely wife and sweet children.

  31. Hi Christian, I saw the story on morning show on 7 this morning and I came to tears. And then I find this,just want to say we care about you and your family,bless you would be soon healed.
    I know an expert who is professional on cancer treatment by chinese medicine and natrual therapies. She recently cured two cancer patients in the past six month. She is in Sydney too. I think it is worth trying.I want to do something for you. Pls let me know your Email and I will send you the details.
    All my best wishes!

  32. JE souhaite boucoup vous de courage Pour Combattre CET saloperie de cancer et redingote boucoup de bonheur Avec Votre Épouse et Vos Enfants Longue Vie a tous … Les Quatre UNE English JJD

  33. God is going to use your experiences to reach out to others, my son, (you know him from a work situation) has been reading it, and I have been praying for him to believe! God is good!

  34. Hello Kristian,
    I want to thank you for your wonderful blog. You have a beautiful way of describing all the love that surrounds you and this trek that has unwillingly been thrust upon you. I am a doctor in NY and have passed this blog along to many of my patients who are going through similar circumstances. More than one of them have already commented to me about how comforting it is for them to read your blog. You have given many of my patients the impetus to write down their own thoughts and the courage to let others share in their moments of weakness and triumph. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

  35. Dear Kristian,
    Nothing is more important than family and your love for your family is awesome. You deserve to have more time with them, and I pray for you all.

  36. Kristian,
    First off, Happy Birthday Rachel, may you have many happy birthdays with your husband and children by your side.
    I watched your video and read your blog. You are a courageous man with a heart of gold, that is so easy to see in your video and writings. You are an inspiration.
    The miracle will come…keep believing, I know I will. I will keep you, Rachel, and your boys in my hearts and prayers.
    From Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, USA, we believe in you…stay strong.

  37. Kristian, Rachel and Family,

    I read about your amazing video on Sky News UK. I pray that there is a cure soon for you and all the other suffers out there. I am so moved by the thought behind your video, floods of tears fall down my face…..take strength knowing people around the world are praying for you all xxxx

  38. Hi Kristian, I saw your birthday message today. It’s not often that people find love in the way you do and to express it so freely was just wonderful. I know you thought is was to be a private message and I hope you don’t mind our intrusion into your lives. I hope that there is a cure for you – keep your beautiful smile for your lovely family … Everyone who sees your video will be touched by it – My thoughts are with you all.

  39. Hello Kristian,

    please google Rick Simpson : Run from the Cure. 70 percent success rate better than Chemotherapy etc

    Please think of alternative methods instead of listening to big Pharma. There are cures for cancer but chemeo is not the answer.

    Please check.


  40. kristian,
    i saw the video you made for rachel’s birthday 🙂 every girl i’ve ever met would LOVE for a guy to do somnething that special for them. 🙂
    and then i came here to see who you really were..and i find out that you’re a brother in Christ! 😀
    thank you—your blogs speak volumes of the hope and truth and security we have in God through Jesus. please know that you and your family are being prayed for–even in pakistan. 🙂
    may the Lord bring healing to you–and till that day may he give you the strength to go on.
    in Him, who lives forever.

  41. Hi my names Hayley from Manchester, UK I watched the video you made for your wife after hearing about it on the news, and just wanted to wish you and your family the best. Although you are going through this terrible thing you have still managed to inspire and bring comfort to those who may be in a similar situation. you are amazing!
    All the best for you and all of your family and friends xxx

  42. When I was in hospital having my chemo, i found it hard to concentrate on anything. It was a battle to even send a text messgae on my phone never mind read a book…I had a particular book next to me during my time in hospital and on my good days did try and get through some of it…it took 6 months but i finished it in the end. In the book, i had a bookmark with this poem on.

    One night I had a dream–
    I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord
    and across the sky flashed scenes from my life.
    For each scene I noticed two sets of footprints,
    one belonged to me and the other to the Lord.
    When the last scene of my life flashed before me,
    I looked back at the footprints in the sand.
    I noticed that many times along the path of my life,
    there was only one set of footprints.
    I also noticed that it happened at the very lowest
    and saddest times in my life.
    This really bothered me and I questioned the Lord about it.
    “Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you,
    you would walk with me all the way,
    but I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life
    there is only one set of footprints.
    “I don’t understand why in times when I needed you most,
    you should leave me.”
    The Lord replied, “My precious, precious child,
    I love you and I would never, never leave you
    during your times of trial and suffering.
    “When you saw only one set of footprints,
    it was then that I carried you.”

    …Mary Stevenson

    Not once through bein diagnosed to getting treatment to coming out the other side did i ever think I was alone…I know the guy upstairs was watching down on me, as he is with u.

  43. Hi Kristian and Rachel, I saw your beautiful video on the Today Show, and had to write and ask you have you ever seen a DVD called Foodmatters? Because on it they talk about curing cancer with very high doses of intravenous Vitamin C. You have to demand it though and keep on demanding. Please try. I’m so glad to know that you know the Lord and trust Him. I will keep praying for you and your beautiful children.

  44. Kristian and Rachel, it’s very difficult to encapsulate in words the wealth of emotions your video and blog creates. This may be because every single person who views these has probably had their lives touched by cancer in some way.So please draw some strength from the knowledge that all these people, across the world wishes you well in your journey through this, and I am one of them.You and your beautiful family are in my prayers.

  45. Hi Kristian and Rachel,

    I am from Singapore and I live in London. Chanced upon your video on Yahoo and have been reading your blog. I am with you in prayer, and though we do not know each other, we serve a wonderful Saviour and Redeemer 🙂

  46. Hi

    I too have the Big C living inside me. My husband and I do not know how long I have left (it started as breast cancer and then metastised in my bones) but we try and live each day to the fullest wherever possible.

    The video you made for your wife made my heart swell, for I know *exactly* what you mean and how much you feel when you say to her ‘I need you like I need a cure for cancer’ for I feel the same way about my husband.

    Keep up the good work! You are an excellent husband and father, and no matter how much this awful disease affects you and takes away your energy and motivation on the dark days, it will never take away the decent human being you are.

    Keep smilin’

    Joan (Manchester UK)

  47. I’m praying for you, Kristian … real hard. xo

  48. Dear Kristian,
    I hope you get better very soon and I hope this message find’s you too.I am from Czech Republic (Europe)and last two years I been doing something you my be interested.It is about deep thermoterapy.Basically it is “Biomat mattress” full of Amethyst stones.This mattress producing Far Infrared Rays 8-12 Micron and Negative Ions.I want you to read this book ASAP http://www.richwayeu.com/research-rakovina.php and see also video on that web-site.If you heat up your body from inside out,this is what cancer cels don’t like.I can provide more information if you get back to me. I know how dificult it must be for you,but in case you want to try I will give it to you this Biomat mattress for free and I will send it to your address in Australia.I want to help!

  49. Kristian,

    I truly believe every person who watches your video for Rachel either wants to be you or wants to be with you. Such a beautiful gesture, had me in tears watching it. Jesus called us to love one another, and you are such an amazing example of this. I pray that you get better and stronger, you are truly a remarkable man, I will be continue to read your blog and pray for your recovery.

    God Bless you and your beautiful family. I wish you a long and wonderful life xoxo

  50. October 6th, 2009. Even in our times of deepest pain we are never alone. That day stands out in my mind. I know exactly where I was and what I was doing. That’s the day I left my home in Saskatchewan for Seattle. I remember riding the bus in the dark and feeling so alone with my pain, and wondering where God was in all this.

    Three days later, on the 9th of October, I held my dad’s hand and sang “Be Still and Know That I Am God” while he took his last breaths. Cancer stole him from us, and while I know that Dad went from our arms, to the arms of his Father, I still ask that same question that you ask, “Why? Why cancer? Why to someone so young, who has so much to live for?”

    I don’t know. I do know one thing. My dad was a light here on earth. He loved God and his one desire was that “The love of (his) Saviour would manifest itself in (his) life.” He said that on his blog once, in one of his last posts.

    And I know something else… You’re doing that same thing, letting Christ’s love be manifest in your life. I don’t know how your journey will end, I hope and pray with everything in me that you still have a long long walk ahead of you, but in the meantime it seems to me that all that love shining out of you is making a difference… In the life of your wife, your children, your family and friends, and the lives of all of us strangers out in this world.

    Many blessings, and MUCH love,
    – Becky Willems

  51. I was overwhelmed with emotion when I saw the video you made for your beautiful wife. I hope one day I find the type of love you two share. You have been thrown a huge curve ball, and perhaps your true calling is to whack that ball right out of the field, spread your message and teach the world about love, because at the end of the day, the house , the car, the money doesn’t matter, all that matters is to love. You are a teacher and a messenger of hope. You have taught me to wake up and appreciate everyday and everyone. You are in my thoughts, and I will be cheering you on to make sure you hit a home run!

  52. No words can express the emotion your video and blogs stir.
    Keep up the fight !!
    There is so much love and support from people on here which reminds me to keep faith in man kind. You have touched many hearts and minds.
    Love to you and your family and we are sending strength love and hope your way as I am sure many others are

  53. I have just read your story in the Woman’s Day, don’t even normally buy it, don’t know what made me do so today. I have just been reading through some of this and watching the birthday video, tears pouring down my face. How beautiful, how wonderful. I was feeling unwell before I started reading and watching, I don’t feel sick anymore, you just reminded me that there is more to life and how precious it all is. So thank you, I will follow you and your family, include you in my thoughts and prayers and pray that you get to watch your gorgeous sons grow into amazing men just like their dad, and i also pray that you get your cure and you and Rachel can grow old together.
    Keep fighting and keep smiling that amazing smile, I’m sure Rachel just loves that smile


  54. Hi Kristian,
    Good luck with your fight! My prayers and thoughts are with you and your family.

  55. Hi Kristian, I saw your blog from a friend’s link on facebook. I have seen both my parents survive cancer and in fact my dad has the exact same diagnosis as you. Have faith and be strong. With your family’s love and support nothing is impossible. When you’re tired and feel down, remember to give everything up to God. He knows all your pains and problems and with Him, everything will be ok. Write me anytime. Take care and have faith.. may His peace, love and joy be with you all the time, and never lose sight of Him in your daily life.

  56. My heart and prayers go out to you and your dear family. My sister had cancer in her lung and lymph nodes…..she went through all of the chemo and radiation….she survived…that was 3 years ago..she has kept her attitude positive all of the time…i am sure she had her moments….She made it and so can you! I have seen miracles as a nurse…It depends on the patients will and attitude …
    I have beeam a registered nurse for 25 years and for the last year I been taking care of my 92 yr old grandma(to keep her out of a nursing home)…It is my way of (pay it forward) to help others. I have adopted my sister’s attitude…I try every day to do something for someone else..like you did for your wife…I admire you and will pray for you and your family every day…every prayer counts…what you did for your wife is amazing…so romantic she will remember it always….
    I only read of your story today..I intend to follow it and try to help keep your spirits up…. If there is anything I can do to help…I know I am far away …let me know…Stay strong and BELIEVE…

  57. Hi Kristian, You are an amazing person, I will pray for you and your family making sure you get past these tough times,

    The story actually reminds me of a good friend of mine called Jordan Ferguson who wrote a book for his son Sebastian while he was ill (It was published in Ireland). Can you send me a postal address, I would love to send yourself and Rachel a copy- (It is very inspiring)

  58. Dear Kristian,

    I was so touched by the video you did for Rachel and I just wanted to tell you that in Jesus’ name, you are healed. Miracles are still happening everyday and together with everyone else, I am here believing one just for you and your family. Take the Holy Communion and know that you are made whole and healthy because He has born all our diseases on the Cross, for u and me.

    See yourself healed, strong and even stronger than before! http://www.newcreation.org.sg/resources/confess-the-word/health-healing

    U are in my prayers and I can’t wait for THE miracle :))

  59. Kristian,

    I saw your video and was very touched! I know what you are feeling now. I also have cancer – Ovarian Cancer Stage IV. I was diagnosed last March 2009 and underwent chemo for 6 cycles from April to August 2009. It has been a year since my last chemo and the day I saw your video, I was told by my doctor that my cancer cells are still in remission a year after my chemo – really a good sign. What was my secret? I prayed a lot. I did not just pray for healing and enlightenment. I also prayed for ACCEPTANCE because things happen for a reason.

    I had my moments but my faith in God and the overwhelming support of relatives, friends and strangers gave me the strength to fight and survive the battle.

    I will include you and your family in my prayers.

    Thank you for sharing your story to the world. God bless you!

  60. Dear Kristian,

    I was very touched by your video thanks.

    I want to talk to you because…

    In 2005/2006 I travelled the world looking for places that were curing cancer. I found them.

    I met dozens of people who had cured their cancer or were in the process of doing so in Mexico, USA and Brazil.

    I feel my experience can help you. Doctors do not have all the answers. Chemo isn’t even proven for liver cancer, and I don’t say this to poo poo what you are doing, just because I am a father and husband too and if I can offer you info that can cure your cancer I will. Without requiring any payment.

    I send you much love,
    Daniel Coates

  61. Kristian,
    I just want you to know that you have support form my husband and myself. right after we got married (4 years ago), i got really ill and it took months for them and us to figure it out and years to help my body heal itself. It was so hard, it was the worst season of my life and I am so thankful that I held out hope and faith and I am so thankful that God is faithful. He knows every hair on our head (or lack of :)) There are lots of resources that helped me, like meditating on healing scriptures, day and night, asking for prayer from faith filled people who understand that it IS God’s will to heal them all and much more. in my quest to find health, I came across an amazing doctor here in Arizona. Dr. Stanley Olsztyn. His sone was sent home to die with stage 4 brain cancer and through alternative treatment, his son was completely healed! I know that miracles exist and I know God uses medicine and doctors. I pray complete and total health for your body, mind and emotions. I can only imagine what your personal struggle is like, but I know mine was worse than i could have ever imagined. i felst so bad for my husband as he was in crisis mode with me as soon as we got married. we spent money on doctors and medicines and supplements and specialists (even though we had insurance) and we lost our home eventually due to financial stress. I could have cared less if I lived in a box if i could just be promised a long life…i was desperate for life! I would love to send you some cd’s that have amazing scripture and testimonies and some prayers that we prayed everyday and anything else God leads me to do. My husband and i would be happy to talk to you and Rachel anytime, pray with you and encourage you in anyway we can. Please feel free to contact us. Blessings and Health, In Him, Nicci & Anthony K from Phoenix, AZ, USA

  62. Kristian,
    Following your blog and quite speechless. I think back to your gorgeous wedding day in that little church in Darlinghurst and it’s inconceivable what has been thrown at you since. But if there were ever a lady to be at your side, I’m glad it’s Rachel. She’s incredible – I was lucky enough to have her support through teenage hard times and am grateful she is at your side through this. Very best wishes from kiwi Erin X

  63. Hello Kristian,
    I’m from Poland and just so your video…it’s amazing how much you love your wife. I can’t stop crying. She is so lucky. I’m sure that you will fight that shit in you becouse you’ve got the most powerfull medicine in a world- LOVE!!!
    I wish you all the best and I will pray for you and your family.

  64. Hello
    I came to your blog via a link on the forum Cat_World.com.au, where someone posted the video, and was very touched by it. I’ve read through all the blog from the start and am staggered and humbled by your faith and belief. My thoughts will be with you every day.
    You are am amazing person and I pray your prayers and faith will be answered. Is surgery on your liver still contemplated? Would that make a big difference?
    I won’t tell you to stay strong because it is obvious you are doing just that.
    May the Lord bless and keep you

  65. Hi Kristian,
    I was sent the link to the video you made for your wife by a friend and just wanted to write to you and tell you how much it moved me. I have just sat and read through your blog from the beginning and am so inspired by your strength and faith. I will be praying for you and your beautiful family every day. God bless you all.

  66. Sending good thoughts and healing prayers your way.

  67. We wish u all the best in your fight against cancer. My husband has the same cancer as u. Was diaognised in June 2010 and is having chemo up until November 2010. We have been told it is terminal but he will put up a brave fight. As u do, we have 3 young children under 10, it is very hard to deal with sometimes, but like u we will never give up.

  68. Dear Kristian and family, I found your video while searching the internet trying to calm down, as our attic caught fire in the middle of the night. Everyone’s okay, thank God, but I couldn’t sleep and was searching around…I really believe God meant for me to find your video! There’s so much I want to say to you and your family…so much loves comes from me and my family (Husband and 3 teenage boys). Could you email me? Thank you! You all will be in our prayers! I also would like to know if I can share your video by linking it to my Facebook page…There’s so many of us in the New Jersey area (United States) whose families have been touched by cancer. Thank you! MaryK.

  69. Dear Kristian,

    I’m very glad to hear that you’re able to have the treatment you spoke of in your latest blog. My boyfriend sent me to youtube to view your video and all I can say is that I pray someone loves me like that one day (and that I have someone I can love as much, also).

    I’m a 22 yr old Linguistics student at the University of Sydney. I’m from the UK but I moved here alone this February to come to Uni. My parents split up last year and one of the reasons your video touched me so much was because I sadly know (I’m not sure if sadly is the right word, but something like that) that my Dad still loves my Mum an exponential amount – somewhere on parr with you and Rachel I feel. Not that you can quantify love, of course.

    I digress anyway, I wanted to get in contact with you as I would like you ask you something, but not on a public blog. If you wouldn’t mind this I would be beyond grateful if you could email me (catherinewebb@hotmail.co.uk). It’s nothing strange I promise, I would just, as I say, prefer not to ask in the rhelm of blog-space.

    I look forward to hearing from you, and I wish you all the luck in the world for next Monday.

    May this be the worst of our days.

    My thoughts will be of you and your family.


  70. Hi Kristian,
    Great film and its obvious that you love your wife and family. My 39 yo niece Felicity has been battling metastatic breatst cancer and my wife, sister and Felicity all fly to Fiji on Sunday as this has been a long term goal for Felicity so we are all very excited.
    I am a Registered Nurse so have been very aware of the odds Felicity is beating (yay). You are to be commended on your blog. On a different note I am looking to enter a short film in the 2011 NSW Nurses Film Festival and was wanting to ask Hugh Jackman for a 15 second cameo. Any tips on how to contact him?


  71. Hi Kristian
    Heard about this natural remedy called The Breuss Cancer Cure.
    With alot of testimonials from cured sufferers. Anyway not sure how it works. More info from http://www.alternativehealth.com.au/Books/breuss.htm
    Praying that you get well soon.
    Joe Davy

  72. Kristian & Rachel,

    Warmest greetings from Toronto, Canada. My name is Rob and along with my beautiful wife Linnea, we are currently raising five-month old twin girls named Cassie and Kaitlin. Collectively, we hold all of you in our prayers, especially now, at Christmas. We are inspired by your message of hope and your remarkable faith in God as you battle against cancer. With many blessings from God, you will prevail against this illness. This much we are sure. Keep going.

    May the road rise to meet you.

    Merry Christmas!


  73. Hi Kristian,

    My mother was diagnosed with breast cancer a couple of months ago and the fight for her has only just started. Reading your posts really helped me get an idea of what my mum is going through right now and what lies ahead for her in this battle. I want to thank you so much for sharing.

    Congratulations on the good news today by the way. It was the news release that led me to your website. I hope it makes a big difference and wish you and your family all of the best.


  74. Just heard your great news. She’s quite a lady. Hope it eases some of the burden. Enjoy.
    Sending love to you all,

  75. Hey Kristian
    I am 42 a dad to three wonder full kiddies and a loving wife and just like you last year was diagnosed with kidney cancer that’s spread to my lung. I get alot of support and help via The Gawler Foundation in Melbourne. I know everyone will be tring to tell you of amazing remedies you need to try. Gawler they help me, they might help you add another tool to your belt whilst you fight.

    Mauro Bertolini

  76. Hey Kristian,
    Was led to your site through the Oprah news today and have been sitting reading your blogs for the last hour or so. You are so inspiring and your family should be so proud of you – as should you of them. My husband had thyroid cancer this year and although he has made a full recovery and is nothing compared to what you have been through, it was awful and scary and unfair and painful – and many other words I have read in this blog. Keep fighting this shitty disease and one day, I am sure, no-one will have to suffer from it anymore.

  77. I am deeply touched by your story. Its an inspiration to all us christians. I would love to get you out at our church to talk to all of us on your challenges and how you have managed with gods help.

  78. I stumbled across your blog by way of local radio. I heard the song “Marry Me” by Train for the first time just about a week ago. The DJ raised the question, “How many people use THIS song to propose to their significant other, I wonder?” She then went on to say that there is a video online that is NOT a wedding proposal but something entirely different and that we should all go to youTube and look for Happy Birthday to Rachel. So I did.

    All of a sudden I am pulled into a story and clamoring to know more! I Google your name and find this blog. Excellent heading, by the way. I mainly wanted to know if your fight was still going as you undoubtedly have much light to share. Your bulb is still burning and for that, I am grateful. I look forward to reading more and I thank you for giving me one more family to hold in prayer.

    May God bless you and your family more each day, Kristian.

    Peace and love,
    Buffalo, NY USA

  79. Like Pam above, I learned about you via the Train video…posted on Facebook by Train!!! I, too, Googled your name and found the blog. Your writing is remarkable, my friend. Your strength, although you may not have seen it at times, is second only to your faith in God.

    My mother has had five different cancers (bladder, breast, one side of her thyroid, mycosis fungoides [a type of lymphoma], and a totally different type of cancer in the other side of her thyroid) with one recurrence (bladder). Mom has beaten all of the cancers except for the mycosis, for which there is no cure (monthly photochemotherapy keeps it at bay). We believe that part of her endurance can be attributed to her wonderful sense of humor! She attributes it in part to her prayers to Blessed Kateri.

    Since you have not posted for a while, I am hoping that all is well with you and that you are gaining strength lost to the year of chemo. I know you are enjoying your children and your wife! Please know that I am praying for all of you, and that God will give you the strength needed to face whatever lies ahead.

    God bless!!!

    Orlando, Florida USA

  80. I just heard about your family and your story via Oprah. I have read through several of your posts and of course watched your beautiful video. Please know that My family and I will be joining in uplifting you in prayer. Can’t wait to be even more inspired by your faith, words, strength, and courage. Your family is very blessed. Love from Tx.

  81. To Kristian and Rachel,

    I just watched your story on Oprah and immediately looked up the video you made for your wife. It is beautiful!

    I was so happy to read your latest blog entry. What evidence that God answers our prayers!

    I wish you and your family all of God’s love and blessing.


  82. I saw your video on Oprah and wanted to stop by. It is inspirational to see you and your family focusing on the important and fighting this fight together. Don’t give up – miracles do happen:) My sister-in-law is a 3 time cancer survivor and was told at one point she had 6 weeks left to live …. 7 years ago.

    We are praying for you and your family as you fight this battle. God bless!

  83. I, along with millions, watched you on Oprah yesterday and I’m just in aw of you guys! I was so excited to read your blog this morning and to know the cancer is gone from your bowel!! I love to see God work miracles and you are truley a miracle. I will keep you guys in my prayers and will axiously await your blog enteries!!!

  84. Dear Kristian,

    I saw you and your family on Oprah and I was amazed by you and your wife’s courage and strength. I found a lot of inspiration in your story, so thank you.

    I was very happy that you were given that money so that you could spend more time with your beautiful wife and children now. I brought happy tears to my eyes and I pumped my fist in the air and said “Yes!!” – it was awesome!

    I hope that one day I will be blessed with a beautiful family like yours.

    My thoughts and prayers are with you.

    Impossible is nothing.

    “He, who has health, has hope; and he who has hope has everything”
    ~ Arabian Proverb

    “Consult not your fears but your hopes and dreams. Think not about your frustrations, but about your unfulfilled potential. Concern yourself not with what you tried and failed in, but with what is still possible for you to do”
    ~ Pope John XXIII

  85. Kristian, you and your beautiful wife are assuredly light and salt. Your blog and your video are a blessing; I do truly love to see young people who glorify God, and you have done an excellent job at it. May God continue to bless and keep you all close. Thank you for sharing your story with the world.

  86. Many prayers from our family for yours.

  87. Hi, your story touched our family as we were watching Oprah……. I will continue to pray for your recovery and your family. It is amazing how God works and in this recent event you have been through just shows that. I look forward to hearing your updates.

  88. I’ve been following your story and blog for a few months and I find you an incredibly inspirational person. I pray to God that you make a full recovery from your Cancer as I think you’ve got a big future ahead of you – you are such a gifted writer.

    Could you contact me on my email address as I have a proposal/ request for you.
    Thanks and best wishes

  89. I heard your plea for prayer i would like to help as God has put it on me to get intouch whith you i left you my email. So i leave it in your hands. Go to God seek him and he will direct your path. don’t let the cancer take hold. leave me your details so i can speak whith you.
    God Bless Stan.

  90. I recently saw something on tv about your story and, of course, had to check it out. I was reading your blog today and crying. Please don’t ever give up your fight. My mother passed from the same cancer as you when I was 12, back in the 80’s. Fight everyday, for your wife and your boys and for yourself. I’ll keep you in my prayers. Deal?

  91. you are still in our heats, minds and prayers. Keep fighting! love-Denver, CO

  92. I just read your ‘Quack Quack’ post and wanted to comment but see you have blocked them. I am sorry some absolute imbeciles have upset you to this extent. I am a naturopath and I would never ‘diss’ the medical profession or their approach to treating disease, as everyone has the right to deal with their health in the way they feel is best for them. So idiots who tell you HOW you should be treating your cancer are totally ignorant and an embarrassment to the complementary medicine profession. Please put all your energy into getting better and forget these plebs. Take Care.

  93. Hi. I’ve been following you since your video to Rachel hit youtube and I think of you and your beautiful family a lot, wishing for the best. I cant imagine what this is like for you, however your writing makes us all connect with you so effortlessly. It is the first time I’ve written, your recent post sparked some fury in me of support and I wanted to say you are doing the right thing. Shut those dickheads out and focus.
    You will win this. You can do it. I’ve seen some fighters and you have something special in your heart that will keep you here on earth with your family. I read your last entry and I was so sad, so angry, for you. Stay strong Kristian.

  94. Kristian I have been so moved by your story, your journey and your faith, as I have been with Rachel too. I wanted to say you’re a hero. To fight as you do for the absolute love of your family makes you one. You are inspiring. I know because I have my own hero. I share your faith in Jesus, and I share your family’s fight in that we to daily fight an incurable disease (and mostly fatal) in my husbands body. And like you, no matter what, we fight and pray out of our love for each other and out of our overwhelming love for our 3 little boys. We believe God sustains us and we believe for victory over disease (Psalm 91), and we believe the same for you. No matter how dark the day may your love you hold in your heart and being ever shine.

  95. I see you in Swedish television today and you and your family tuch my heart. I hope you win the fight! All power to you!

  96. I have just seen you on Sunrise talking about your ‘fight’ with Canberra. As well as pushing the fight over Erbitux please push the cause for the Government to reinstate that National Bowel Cancer Screening Program that they let lapse last December.

    The reintroduction of the program can save 1300 live this year alone.

    I understand that because you are so young that you would not have been a beneficiary of the program. Because I turned 55 this year – neither was I (simply as a result of the weird way that they implemented the program for people turning 50, 55 or 60 only). In November last year I was diagnosed with Stage 3A bowel cancer. I am in the middle of 6 months of Folfox treatment.

    Had I been screened in the implementation year of the program that has now lapsed, in all probability my cure could have been achieved with a colonoscopy procedure or at worst surgery.

    The National Bowel Cancer Screening Program should be a matter of national health priority. Unfortunately as with most things attached to bowel cancer – people really don’t want to know.

    Please, when you have the ear of government, take the opportunity to raise both the Erbitux and NBCSP issues.

    I hope that your treatment continues to improve your condition just as I hope and pray for a ‘clean bill of health’ for myself at the end of my chemotherapy program.

  97. I’m also on this drug, Erbitux, and have had good results so far.

    I have been battling bowel cancer since 2007 having had a major bowel operation. It then spread a year later to my ovaries to which I then had a full hystarectomy including my uterus. It has spread again all through my lymph glands so it now inoperable. I’ve been told its now terminal and I was given 2 years to live in March 2010.

    Its now been a year and my tumours are still at bay with no growth so esentially I’ve been given a year back of my life. The tumours are still there however are “asleep” as Kristian mentioned in his blog. I’m on chemo indefinately to increase my life span but so far so good although those pesky tumours are still sitting there. I cant and wont accept that I’ve been given a couple of years left to live so I’m fighting this will all my will.

    As for the rashes and acne he refers to, I know exactly what he means, its painful and burns at times (I stick my head out the car too from time to time for a bit of burn relief, I feel like a dog doing this!).

    Kristian, we are both going through the same thing so I totally know what you are going through. Reading your blog was like you were talking directly to me and I had tears in my eyes having found someone out there exactly like me. We have to keep strong and keep fighting this demon, nothing is absolute.

    Love Marina xxx

  98. Hi Kristian,

    I just got directed to your blog by Jared Noel, who I think you met the other day. You’re writing is inspiring and moving. I am 29 years old and was diagnosed with bowel cancer in October last year. I can relate to a lot of the experiences you have gone through/going through. I have gone through a few rounds of oxaliplatin and FOLFIRI/avastin with little results. At the moment I’m waiting to hear back from my insurers as to whether they will cover Cetuximab (feeling confident but fingers crossed). I’m stoked to hear it has been so successful for you so far. Good luck with the campaigning. I definitely think there needs to be more awareness around both the symptoms and various treatments for bowel cancer (it appears to be the untalked about bastard child of the common cancers, yet it is rampant round this part of the world). I hope the treatment continues to be a success.

    All the best,

    Arrowtown, NZ

  99. So many young adults are diognised with bowel cancer, secondary in the liver. My husband was 43 when diagonised june 2010. The government need to listen to these young people with families, ane make the drugs affordable for all. We all have small children to live life with. It is certainly not just an older persons worry. Bowel cancer is not easily detected, and symptoms are not really bad or so it may seen. My husband found out after feeling a little uncomfortable in stomach and had lost weight. Was given less than 3 months, without treatment. Happy to say still here today after just having sertec,we just go day by day.

  100. Hi Kristian,
    My mother was diagnosed with stage 4 bowel cancer that spread to the liver when she was only 39. It returned 3 times with the last recurrence deemed inoperable. I tell you this because that was 16 years ago, and she is now cancer free thanks to a little medicine and a lot of faith in God. Even though it may seem impossible at times, hang in there as you are an inspiration not only to your family but to everyone else who is fighting or has loved ones who are fighting this horrible disease.
    We are sending you our prayers from Spain and Texas, USA.

  101. Hi Kris,
    Just checking in with how you are. It was such a privilege to hear your story on Hope1032 earlier this year and if you are happy for us to catch up with you again, I’m sure people would love to hear from you (and maybe we can get a few more signatures on the erbitux petition!) If you’re up for a chat, our email is the best way to go.
    Praying for you,

  102. Hi Kristian,

    My name is Dan Haslam and i am 21. I too was diagnosed with bowel cancer with mets all through my liver. I was given a pretty bad prognoses initially, being termed inoperable and only given a couple of years at best. But after a bowel ressection, chemo, a massive liver ressection and more chemo i was given the big ok. I have been blessed and am so incredibly fortunate. Obviously there is a bit more to my story and it wasnt as easy as it reads, but i know that in a lot of cases this thing can be avoided and treated so much better if caught in the early stages.
    I am going to do big things to get wide spread awareness and help make a difference. Because i know how bad it is to suffer but i also know that this can be beaten! You are an incredible inspiration Kris and i would like to work with you to raise the profile of this issue to the world. I hope to hear from you. I will continue to try and get in touch with you, and i understand if youre busy. But please send me an email if you get the chance. dan_haslam@hotmail.com
    Until then, keep your chin up and stick in there. When i was in trouble my surgeon Professor David Morris of StGeorge hospital worked some magic. You should look him up, he is amazing!
    I sincerely wish you and your family all the best!
    -Dan Haslam

  103. Hi Kristian,
    Checking back in on your progress over the last few months. I am sad to hear that things are not going great recently.
    As a survivor myself I know sometimes it can be hard to find any sollace in these dark places our mind can visit, when ill, or having suffered a set-back.
    Seek sollace in the fact that you have touched many millions of people the world over not only with your bravery , but with this amazing blog. Everyone of those people are routing for you. Im routing for you. You will beat this. I have no doubt .
    Thanks for sharing your experience with us.
    Let me finish with a small Irish Blessing on behalf of all of us here in Ireland that are following your journey.
    “May the road rise up to meet you, may the wind be ever at your back. May the sun shine warm upon your face and the rain fall softly on your fields. And until we meet again, May God hold you in the hollow of his hand.”
    – Richard Carroll

  104. Hi Kristian,
    I’ve been reading your blog and tonight I was sharing one of your recent posts with my wife that had effected me deeply and I felt compelled to message you just to say that i’m here, that i’m listening and that i’m in your corner. If you see the stalker again tonight tell him Ed says to fuck off!

  105. Btw Kristian… Yes… Your story has reached millions… And you are helping everyone feel not so alone in their humaness. For that we all thank you… And as you fight your battle & inner demons… also know that you are not alone.
    Would love your comments on the link of the internet video just sent.
    God Bless…
    Raewyn Pasco

  106. 6 simple words:
    I am praying for you today.

  107. 2 Thessalonians 3:3

    But the Lord is faithful, and he will strengthen you and protect you from the evil one.

  108. Romans 15 :13
    May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.

    This hope does not disappoint us.

    Praying in America,

  109. I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you. John 14:18
    This is the WORD that I have received as I was praying for you tonight.

    I have not forgotten you, neither has the LORD.

  110. Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9

    Praying for you both today.

  111. You have shown us all how to make dreams come true, all with you here X

  112. Now may the God of peace, who through the blood of the eternal covenant brought back from the dead our Lord Jesus, that great Shepherd of the sheep, equip you with everything good for doing his will, and may he work in us what is pleasing to him, through Jesus Christ, to whom be glory for ever and ever. Amen. Hebrews 13:20-21

    Praying that the one who gave you life will give it to you to the fullest John 10:10


  113. Jesus is the same yesterday, today and forever. Believing with you, believing for you. Carrying you before the throne that you might receive grace and mercy as you have need.

    John 5
    Luke 5


  114. Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.
    Ephesians 3:20-21

    Praying that HIS power will be manifest in your life and in the lives of your family.

  115. I am ripping the roof off of the house tonight and lowering you, in prayer, before the LORD.

  116. You have been on my heart all morning and as I continued to pray for you today and the verse the LORD gave me for you is found Romans 12:1. I’d encourage you to read it for yourself. But as I went about my normal day I heard this message and couldn’t help thinking about you, your wife and your sons, So I wanted to share it with you all.

    Remember, that you are loved. (Even by people who haven’t met and won’t meet even if I live to be 100.)


  117. Kristian
    You are an inspiration to so many people and thanks to your fight for erbitux to be put on the PBS, my husband is now taking it. Has had three treatments so far. How long have you been on it? Will you be able to have surgery to remove your liver tumours?

  118. Your video proves that there are things beyond us, like your family, that are worth fighting for.

    Kristian, God has given me a scripture for you, as he always does.

    It’s found in Hebrews 6:10

    God is not unjust; he will not forget your work and the love you have shown him as you have helped his people and continue to help them.

    The implication is this….continue…..you still have things to do. ( A lot of them and it’s going to take a LONG time to complete them.)
    I’d also encourage you to take a look at Psalms 91 particularly verse 16 and to remind God of the promise he made you there!

    All blessings in Christ,

  119. The LORD bless you
    and keep you;
    the LORD make his face shine on you
    and be gracious to you;
    the LORD turn his face toward you
    and give you peace. Number 6:24-26

    Praying the you will experience today, the peace that comes from being here and in his presence.


  120. Even a I am overcoming the trials in my own life you and your family remain on my heart and in my prayers.
    Romans 8: 3–32

    What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? 32 He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? 33Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. 34 Who then is the one who condemns? No one. Christ Jesus who died—more than that, who was raised to life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. 35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? 36 As it is written:
    “For your sake we face death all day long;
    we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.”[j]
    37 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 38 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[k] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
    (Please check out this link.)

  121. Hello Mr. Anderson,….
    I have not e-mailed you before. I read your intro and pray that you are still fighting the good fight and that you are winning!!
    My brother in law is fighting colon and liver cancer also. stage 4. He has been on chemo and other treatments for a year or so now, I don’t know all the details of course, and while he is up and down, he would like to explore any modality that may help him overcome.
    I wanted to ask you if you know anything about Bio Mat treatments? and if so, how they may interact with erbitux drug? He has tried to discuss this with his doctor but gets no cooperation there. Or if you know of any studies that have been done or discussion groups that he may contact. I would greatly appreciate any info you might be willing to share.
    Thank you so much and God go with you and your family. We will keep you in our prayers.
    Teresa Collins

  122. Simply praying for you tonight!

  123. Dear Kristian

    Your latest blog made me want to write to you again.
    Every breath you take, you are showing your boys and Rachel how much you love them. Make every breath deliberate and with love. Feel the healing come into your body with every breath!
    God is there with you, all the angels and every prayer from every person that reads your blog, and the millions that saw you on Oprah’s show. Manifest your healing, already you have shown the world what can be done with words, thoughts and your videos.
    Thinking and praying for you.
    Sonia x

  124. Kristian,
    Oddly enough, I woke up this morning while thinking about you, which always leads me to prayer and then I opened my computer and there was your current Blog “Recovery”

    In fact, even though I’ve been ministering to someone else for the past 2 weeks, with equally painful needs, you keep coming to mind. And that’s made me think…..if I, a perfect stranger, care about you, if I have compassion for you, if I desire your healing and the restoration of your soul (of your family as well)…..how must your heavenly father feel?

    In Genesis 16:13 a maid servant refers to the LORD as “The God who Sees” and he sees you RIGHT NOW.

    Kristian, the heart felt emotion that you describe in you Blog is the same feeling God has toward you, Jesus endure pain, separation, loss and more than you or I will ever understand, because he loved YOU! He still does…..he hasn’t forgotten you…..he hasn’t turned his back on you and I have to believe, that he not only sees, but he’s moved by your pain because he remembers his own.

    God the Father was separated from his sons for a season, just as you are separated from yours, but that separation lasted only a little while and it served a purpose beyond what anyone could see.

    Let me put this plainly, I CAN NOT and I WILL not rejoice in the fact that you are in such emotional and physical pain, but I will rejoice that in it, GOD is about to show up and when you does, you will SEE him in ways you have never SEEN him before!

    2 Corinthians 4:7

  125. Praying that the LORD renews your strength today and reveals his plans and purposes for your life.

  126. Rachel,
    Can you email me at gingin404@aol.com? I want to speak to you. I want to encourage you. I want to walk with you as YOU go through this journey!


  127. Dear Kristian
    Im a fan of the Cohen lines too.
    Im a fan of you too after reading
    your writings. Im
    not much of a prayer but
    my prayers are with you…
    “I shall nor fear
    For you are with me”
    Psalm 23
    God bless you

  128. Hi Kristian,
    Grace here from the other side of the world, little old Ireland. I heard of your story and that of your beautiful families through the Oprah show. I think you are amazing and if possible at all, wish you a miraculous recovery to health. Thanks for sharing your story with us, you truly are an inspiration and a credit to your family. I’m 30 and my boyfriend is 36, the thought that someone as “young” and healthy as us suffering so much from such an extreme illness is terrifying and we are in admiration of your courage and bravery.
    Just wanted to let you know that you, your beautiful wife Rachel, Cody & Jakob (love the names by the way!) are in our thoughts and prayers.
    Just a thought – i see you’ve an interest in poetry and quotes which is cool, my favourite poem is “IF” by Rudyard Kipling and thought you might like to google it. It’s makes particular reference to the relationship between father and son so thought you might like to share it with your boys.
    Take care & God Bless

  129. I’m a friend of Melody Henderson’s. She let me know about your blog. Praying for you from the U.S. I will believe with you for miracles!

  130. Dear Kristian and Rachel,

    Please know that people all around the world are praying you Kristian and you must never give up the fight. I am pretty sure we met Rachel many years ago when she was billeted with Cal & Vicky in Labrador City. We live in Hampton, New Brunswick, Canada and you visited us with Cal & Vicky because Cal is my cousin. We saw you on the Oprah program and so are aware of your situation. God Bless you and your family and we are praying that you will get better Kristian. All Our Love to you Kristian, Rachel and the boys.

    Gary & Donna Peddle

  131. My family and i are praying for you and yours Kristian! you have inspired me in so many ways to live life to the full and always put my trust in God! x

  132. I think of you often and pray that today your pain is eased by the thought of your children, your wife and millions of people wishing you peace and serenity! You are such a light of life and I hope you today and as well as many more you feel at peace.

    From Ohio,

  133. Big hugs to the four of you.

  134. My God. Kristian, I am so sad to hear you are facing such a diagnosis.
    In all your actions, you have given so much. You have lived with such a brightness, such a light itself.
    I don’t know how I can say such. It sounds a little trite. But everything I’ve seen, everything I’ve read is alive with an essence of love that most of us spend eons trying to connect with.
    By the simplest of ways, by just your own heartfelt sharing, you have given to others in ways I wonder if you would really know.
    It’s there in the beauty of your heart, like you said in your video, it didn’t need voice.
    You have a beautiful wife, beautiful children, and you have the love of many you may never meet.
    With all the packages of emotions we learn to take on, the sweetness of your very existence is a wonder.
    You have my prayers, they are all I can give. Be blessed.

  135. I lost my 35 year old brother to bowel cancer only a few weeks ago. I do understand what your family is going through and although you have no idea who I am – I am here if they need support of any kind. Even just someone to talk to.
    Your family is absolutely gorgeous and you’ve definitely been blessed 🙂
    My prayers and thoughts are with you all at this time and I wish you light and love on your next journey ❤

  136. Kristian, I know a cancer sufferer who was deemed to die last Christmas.His body was wracked with it.He went on chemo but also began consuming Apricot Kernals.He attributes his redemption to Apricot Kernals.They must be bitter kernals and not cooked.Increase your intake to as much as you can stand.Paul told me 30-40 per day makes you ill.Crush them in a coffee grinder and swallow with milk or juice.No guarantees but it is worth a try.Aparently drug companies are trying to copy its caner killing qualities and patent it.Do some research on the web and look at other natural remedies.Conventional medicine is all geared towards profit.If it is a natural help or cure our medical system will not consider it.

  137. Wow Ross – I don’t know if you are from Australia or elsewhere, but my very young (30yr old) husband spent 18 months undergoing treatment for bowel cancer. I hope by your comment that “the medical system” won’t consider anything but conventional treatments (primarily because of profiteering) was posted as a generalisation and not specifically commenting on the Oncology and Radiation Dr’s and Nurses that work within the system. We found them to be very open and willing to discuss other treatments, they wanted to know if we were considered or using them so that they could be examined in-tandem with the conventional treatment offered. Not once did we incur resistance or cynicism in general discussions about them

  138. Hey Cuz, just to clarify, I’m Gregga J Johnn who’s been following you recently on Twitter. I have a prayer for you.
    “Abba, (Daddy) Father,
    I request an Indian Summer for Kristian. That time as winter and the years end draws near in the northern hemisphere when the cold darkness pauses a while to let the light warmth in briefly one last time.
    I ask Precious LORD Jesus that You will grant a reprieve during these last days up until Christmas when the tribulation of Kristian’s failing body would step aside a moment and not be so distracting.
    Ever present Holy Spirit of Comfort, present Kristian and his whole family network with a time of companionship and communion where we can all enjoy each other in love, peace, and joy one last time together before Kristian gets to go home.
    What a wonderful future awaits my beloved cousin, to be with You so very soon. Thank You that You will so perfectly care and provide for his family after he has gone. You hold them. You are more than enough.
    May this Christmas reprieve be a time to celebrate the wonder of You here with us now and us with You soon.
    Hallowed be Your Name, for everything is Yours- the Kingdom, the Power, the Glory- forever. We are blessed to bear Your touch in our lives. Halleluia, AMEN”

  139. Kristian, I check your blog almost daily to see if you have posted. Your entries are so painfully beautiful with so much passion and courage. Your wife is amazing and I believe that neither of you would have made it through this without each other’s support and love. Wishing you all the very best and sending lots of love to you and your family, especially this Christmas.

    Best wishes

  140. […] want to start the year by making you cry… but I’ve just heard of the death of Kristian Anderson. He made this lovely film for his wife Rachel. Watch it. You’ll cry. Sorry about that part, […]

  141. Hello,

    I am very sorry about Kristian’s passing, your story has touched me like many, and helped me to see how fortunate I am, yet, not really enjoying life while its there. Somehow, I am empty for words, but I will pray for you Rachel and your family.

    Olivier, Wellington – NZ.

  142. “Peace be with you ”
    Kris I know you are now at peace and out of pain. Watch from above over your beautiful family.
    Rach I know you too are at peace but now have a hard time for u and ur boys .. I wish you all the love and support and guidance to help you through this.
    I can say the pain doesn’t get easier but it does get better..
    Sarah /Perth

  143. Dear Kristian i didnt know about you until today i saw on the news that you had passed away.You were such brave young man and a loving husband and gentle father God Bless you and your family and i know the strenght of your love for them will keep them strong and happy ,safe throughout there lives.Be happy in heaven.

  144. So sorry to hear – you story has been an inspiration to so many – God Bless your family.

  145. I just came across Kristian’s story this morning, at around 9:30 am, and I was so touched. Its seem just mere minutes after he left for glory. I can’t imagine his arrival and welcome ceremony! He is now experiencing what mortal eyes have not seen, ears have not heard, nor what mortal hearts can envision. He is a blessing. He is an encouragement to me who, is recovering from breast cancer. Through which I have placed my trust in the true and living God of heaven the father of lights. In my journey I’ve noticed that those who are not facing the challenge don’t understand the peace the comes from trusting God no matter the outcome. But God is faithful in all. Rachel and the boys be blessed knowing with all assurances that God loves and will take care of you. He does all things well.

    Carolyn King-Williams

  146. Dear Rachel,
    May God’s strengthening joy keep you and your precious sons at this time. I have just read the headlines that Kristian has gone o be with our Lord. I had just seen his video tribute to you. I pray that God continues to open doors of blessings to you and the boys. It is a difficult thing to lose ones husband, but knowing that he is in God presence, is partly a peace giving feeling. I pray that God supply’s all that you will need in every area, to help with bringing up your lovely children as well as in meeting your own needs. Our Heavenly Father, will be with you now and always. God be with you. Much love, Agnes

  147. I follows your story when I read it some Tom, I think last year. I had Cancer in 2010. I wasn’t given much of a chance. I’m proud to say I saw your video and had hoped for the best My condolences to yr Family

  148. Rachael,
    Im sorry for the loss of such an inspiring and wonderful young man. your husband seemed a real gentleman. i hope you find the strength to move forward with Kristian in your heart forever. i wish you and your boys a wonderful life with kristian watching over. May god bless you and your family. Kristian will bring wonderful and happy things to your life from heaven and open doors to new avenues. You have touched a place in my heart. xoxox

  149. Hello Rachel,
    We are actually connected through Trevor who has been a long time family friend. We lost contact when the family home at Bexley was sold and we did not have a current address for Trevor and Sandy.

    I have left messages on Kristian’s facebook, as has my sister Gillian.

    We saw the funeral report on television and made the connection when Jeremy spoke. We attended dedications and Garry Coleman baptised me at Parramatta where I attended with Sandy and Trevor. I would love to hear from them if at all possible and apologise for this intrusion at this time.
    God bless you with His amazing peace.
    Love Julie

  150. Rachel
    don’t kw where to start where to finish i was following kristian story from last year i watched u came to oprah. i cant stop thinking hw u holding up,bec every time i read or watch about u and kristian make me cry
    all i can say Rachel he is watching over u and ur 2 beautiful boys, God bless u and 2 little princes
    He will be proud of u We all are

  151. RIP

  152. Dear Rachel and family,

    I just saw Kristian’s Birthday Wishes video posted on a friend’s FB page. After viewing it, I Googled Kristian’s name and arrived here at his blog site. I have read many entries, viewed his services, and reveled in awe at your strength, Rachel, and your faith-filled convictions regarding the purpose your family’s battle with cancer would serve. Your partnership with the Lord, and your “light-filled” family, serve as an example to all of us. Please accept my sympathy for your loss, and my gratitude for being role models for God-centered marriage. I hope you continue to have light, love, peace and blessings surround you, and Kristian’s watchful eye from above.

  153. I’ve just completed reading Kristian’s blog. I am across the video on youtube and needed to read more about him, Rachel and their boys. What an awesome blog, filled with happy, funny, faithful, spiritual moments all in one. What an awesome warrior of God you are Kristian! May God’s light continue shine through your produce – your sons, may they grow up knowing that their dad inspired so many and may their love of God spread and touch lives just like yours did. RIP

  154. Rachel, what a way to go. We should be at peace when our time comes. Please accept my sincere condolences to you and your family. The video is a wonderful remembrance of the love your husband has for you and your children. My God remain with you and your family every step of the way.

  155. I’m sorry for your loss. Thank-you for allowing us to read & hear of your husband’s/ family’s fight. May you find peace in your memories. God bless you & your sons.
    Erin Pedigo

  156. just weeping…..

  157. just weeping…my heart breaks

  158. Rachel, your husband’s story as moved me and I wish I had have read this all earlier.
    I’m a 17 year old from north east Victoria in Australia who has sadly already felt the pain of losing two close friends to cancer. The horrible disease needs a cure to rid all from the torture it bestows upon everyone surrounding as well as the victim it unfairly decides to attack.

    I found comfort but heart ache in reading through the months and months of words from Kristian, it gave me more of a understanding of what my dear friends would have been through before their passings. It helps me realise that they are free of pain even though the unfairness of it all will never be understood.

    I sincerely hope you and both of your families are coping as well as you can.
    And I hope you don’t grow tired of reading comments from people from around the world.
    Kristian’s story and your strength are a complete inspiration to all.

    Thank you.

  159. Dear Rachel,

    My name is Heidi and I lost my partner Andrew of seven years in November 2011. I watched you on Sunrise this morning and I wanted to write to you to tell you I understand. Having just got over the shock of my loss I have awoken and now miss him every minute, every hour, every day.

    Grief is such a funny thing it creeps up on you and encapsulates you for moments, days and sometimes weeks. A good friend of mine explained that it is a bit like a heavy fog that comes in on some days and then some days it lifts. But its always there. As much as the feeling can be heavy it reminds me of my love for him and that, I think is precious.I hope that the heavy feeling reminds you of the love you have and the love you had.

    I hope that you feel Kristian around you because I certainly feel Andrew around at times. Those moments of connection are amazing and happen when you least expect it, so I have found. And they keep me going. Thanks for sharing your story. I now feel I’m not alone.

    Love Heidi

  160. Hi Rachel, Cody and Jakob,
    I hope you are feeling the warmth of Kristians love shining down on you from above. He was a very inspirational human being. A man of love, courage and faith. I did not know him, nor will I probably ever meet you or your sons, but his story has touched me and so many others and from what I have read and seen I know he lives on, in so many ways, in your heart, your memories and in your sons.
    Bless you all and may you find comfort in the passing of time so that when you do think of your husband or father it only brings smiles and breathes life into your hearts and sprits, not the ache of loss and bittersweet memories.
    Kristisn lives on in so many peoples minds and thoughts around the world.
    Thank you Kristisn for sharing your journey.

  161. I used to read you blog faithfully, I’m sorry I ever stopped! Now I remember what got me enamored hooked overall.

  162. Rachel. I just saw your birthday video for the first time on Godtube.com. The person who posted the video to Godtube did not include a link to this blog, or even your full names. Finding you was a bit of a challenge, but i’m so glad I did. I never comment on the Internet….ever. I don’t know why I am now. All I know is that the Holy Spirit is telling me to keep typing. You are an inspirational legacy. You, Kristian, and the boys have built hundreds of thousands (if not millions) of heavenly treasures. Oh, to imagine the heavenly reunion you will have. God will raise a hand, point to a sea of saved souls, and smile upon you. Thank you for showing His light every step of the way. Praise, glory, and honor to our Lord and Master, Jesus Christ. I am proud to call you my sister in His heavenly kingdom.

  163. I spent an entire day reading Kristian’s blog. I wish there had been many more entries. As an RN, I have faced death more times than I care to count, and eventhough I thought I was a source of strength to my patient’s, after reading this blog and really comprehending what he says, I have come to know that I still have so much more to learn; about life, about love, about forgiveness anger and compassion, about myself and most of all about God. After 53the years on this planet, it took me all of about 24to hours to see that not only have I missed “The Bigger Picture”, but that I had no clue as to my true purpose in life…..I may still not know what God has in store or what he has mapped out for me. I can only hope AND pray that I can see half of what Kristian saw, be half the parent Kristian was, Feel half the love Kristian felt and live half the life Kristian lived. I wonder, had God not called him home, where he would be today…..His story touched me and whatever Gods purpose was for him, I think he more than accomplished it. He truly was a “Gifted Man” and feel privledged to have read part of it! Thank you Rachel, for allowing us in until the end. Your opening the window allowed my soul to be set free, to start anew……..the gift Kristian gave to Every One of us!!

  164. I do not leave a response, however after browsing a few of the responses
    here About There is a crack in everything. I actually do have 2 questions for you if you don’t mind. Could it be just me or does it look as if like a few of these remarks come across as if they are written by brain dead visitors? 😛 And, if you are posting at additional social sites, I’d like to follow everything fresh you have to post.
    Could you list of the complete urls of all your social sites like your twitter
    feed, Facebook page or linkedin profile?

    • Hi there,
      Thanks so much for reading. My twitter is @rachelacj but I don’t tweet very often. I must do it more!
      love Rachel

  165. I am a two-time survivor of breast cancer. Both my husband and I were diagnosed with cancer in the same week in 2006. He was a pastor in the UMC . He didn’t make it. I did. I am scheduled for a mammogram tomorrow. Who knows what the future holds. We walk with God! I will keep you in my prayers.

    Grace and peace, Millie

    • How are you doing, Millie? I’m so sorry to hear of the passing of your husband. What a terrible shock to both be diagnosed at the same time.
      God bless,
      Rachel xx

  166. A Kristian Anderson from Perth Australia used to e-mail be back in 1999/2000. Not sure if this is the same one or not but he worked at Editel at the time. We “met” on a Black Lab (music band) website forum. He mailed me a video he made (VHS) to a Black Lab song (Time Ago) and he called me once clear from Australia. We lost touch about 2000/2001 and I was just curious one day to look him up on FB. I did a search on the internet and came across the Krispa Twitter account. That shook me. Kristian used to e-mail me from Krispa75@hotmail.com years ago and I still have the e-mail. I’m not sure this is the same Kristian or not but the similarities are astounding. Sorry for your loss. A great loss.

    • Yes, that would have been my husband. He loved Black Lab right up until the end and we used one of their songs for a photo montage during the funeral. If you’re interested you can view the funeral here: http://vimeo.com/34940118
      We miss him everyday.
      Rachel xx

      • I tried to look him up a few times years back. I was devastated to read about this and to find out that I was too late in finding him. He once sent me a video he made back in the 90s. I wish I had kept it. Your message brings comfort to me. Blessings.

  167. Hi Rachel

    Two days ago I came across Kristian’s book. I have no words to fully describe how grateful I am for the life your husband lived. I have been struggling with my faith in God but as I read Kristian’s book and how he kept the faith despite the pain, I am encouraged to trust God. To stand on his word despite the disappointments of life.
    I pray that you, Jakob and Cody are well. May God continue to make his face shine upon you. The Anderson family is certainly destined to be mightily used by God to make a difference in the lives of many. Keep that light shining through! 🙂
    Thank you

  168. My prayers are with you Kristian.. I lost my husband 6 months back for bowel cancer .. Its important to create awareness in people regarding the disease : http://colorectal-surgeon.com.au/

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